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Talking through trauma and PTSD

Running

Running

"Behind every strong person is a story that gave them no choice"

My life is all about a lack of choice.

I'm alive because death would've outed him, it would have sealed his fate in prison.

TW: cultic, rape, trafficking, torture

I'm the daughter of a Satanist...

One trained to breed...

One pregnant at 6 years old...

One prostituted to whoever could afford her...

The girl her dad didn't want...

One men hired to have fun with...

One men experimented with...

One who was tortured for speaking up...

One trained for the sole purpose to please her buyer...

Regardless of age...

Still though...

One who never stayed silent...

One who broke free... twice...

One who rose up...

One who seeks to prove them wrong...

One who has been running for 15 years...

One who just needs to feel heard...

One who went through hell and survived...

That this Phoenix can rise...

She will not be burned...

She's proven that...

I have proven that...

I'm 35 and 90% of those I've been in prolonged abusive situations insufficient evidence for prosecution

A system that protects the abuser more than the survivor

And yet I still try

I don't try for me, I try for the ones after me, the ones like me, that they will see their justice

But for now I run...

From a dad that wants me silenced...

From the nightmares that plague my sleep...

From the memories that invade my mind...

From the choices made for me...

Didn't expect that to come out as poetic as it did

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@rav3n

My problem was my legs were too long even with the seat far back

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Hi @avant-garde 👋

I see your posts a lot when scrolling and read the little snippets that I can see and have often felt drawn to your thread. So just wanted to stop by and say hello.

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Thanks for dropping in @Bow, what about what I post makes you feel drawn to it? Just curious 😉

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I don’t know @avant-garde i think sometimes I can just really relate to some of what your experience and share.

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I can appreciate that @Bow

It can help us to see that though aspects of our lives may be unique but that others can relate to us too, and in that, our experiences are not always unique to us. That's what makes community, common-unity 💜

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You know what bugs me? It drives me absolutely nuts and makes me so angry sometimes.

I don't meet everyone else's expectations for my life.

  • I don't have a job
  • I don't have a house
  • I don't have a family
  • I'm not married
  • Me having children is beyond their comprehension

There's a boundary that I'm working on

I'm sorry if how I live makes you uncomfortable (or something like that)

I appreciate their efforts to help me with these however my pursuits are enough and they don't know me well enough to know what's best for me so they can rack off already!

[edited: and then @Jynx arrives and all is right with the world]

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D'aww! Hi @avant-garde!

You know I'm soooo similar. People really do seem to get it into their heads that there is only one correct way to live a life, hey. And yet.... funny how the more I defy expectations and do the taboo thing, the happier I've become!

People been passing judgey comments on your life have they hun? Rack off indeed!!

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@Jynx

Yeah telling me what I should do rather than asking me what I am doing

*Starts throwing pillows at Jynx*

Castle time!

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@avant-garde eeeee!!

*ducks, gets hit with second pillow anyway*

Woohoo!! Can we have a parapet? I am not too sure what it is but I like how the word sounds 😋

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@Jynx I don't see why not

*waves my hands around like Matilda and magics pillows into place in Jynx's general direction*

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