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Talking through trauma and PTSD

Running

Running

"Behind every strong person is a story that gave them no choice"

My life is all about a lack of choice.

I'm alive because death would've outed him, it would have sealed his fate in prison.

TW: cultic, rape, trafficking, torture

I'm the daughter of a Satanist...

One trained to breed...

One pregnant at 6 years old...

One prostituted to whoever could afford her...

The girl her dad didn't want...

One men hired to have fun with...

One men experimented with...

One who was tortured for speaking up...

One trained for the sole purpose to please her buyer...

Regardless of age...

Still though...

One who never stayed silent...

One who broke free... twice...

One who rose up...

One who seeks to prove them wrong...

One who has been running for 15 years...

One who just needs to feel heard...

One who went through hell and survived...

That this Phoenix can rise...

She will not be burned...

She's proven that...

I have proven that...

I'm 35 and 90% of those I've been in prolonged abusive situations insufficient evidence for prosecution

A system that protects the abuser more than the survivor

And yet I still try

I don't try for me, I try for the ones after me, the ones like me, that they will see their justice

But for now I run...

From a dad that wants me silenced...

From the nightmares that plague my sleep...

From the memories that invade my mind...

From the choices made for me...

Didn't expect that to come out as poetic as it did

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@avant-garde rats!! My cunning is undermined by my own desire to share!! Probably why I'm not known for my sneaky qualities 😋

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@Jynx

I'm not sure what to talk about for change...

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@avant-garde we need a giant wheel - like wheel-of-fortune style - that has a whooooole big bunch of topics, so we can just go "WHEEEEEEE oh cool frogs do you like frogs?" 🤣

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I like Fully Relying On God yes, I like frogging it @Jynx

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@avant-garde yes my fav! I call it 'surrendering to fate's wisdom'. I adore how much our spirituality resonates! 😊

Yay frogs!! Ohhhh to be a happy lil frog on a lilypad 🐸

Oooh know what animals have like, THE best chill? Capybaras 💜

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@Jynx nope, sloths

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@Jynx

Gah! This is why I don't let people in! This is why! Stupid humans too busy for me!

*runs away crying*

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@avant-garde did something happen? Or is it cos of me?

I am indeed a busy lil bee, does not mean I am not making time for you whenever I can. It it is never, ever because I don't care. I do sometimes move a little slow, especially when I am trying to take my time with my words, and I have had a lot of words for many people tonight.

I always have more words for you as well though, if you still wanna chat about sloths 😙

*waits patiently with all the understanding of why you may need to hesitate*

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@Jynx

Firstly, it's not you, it's never you, I would tell you straight out.

It's stupid people cancelling on me and not actually being surprised.

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@avant-garde gladness, and thanks 😊

Oh dang that one is never fun. Was the cancelled thing something important to you or that you were looking forward to as well? Sitting with rejection as well as disappointment?

*spots the time, rushes in for last hugs*

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