Running

*finds @Jynx in pile of pillows*

*gives them a big squeeze*

*snuggles in close*

Pillow cave now

EEEEE HEHEHE

@avant-garde I really need to break my habit of going through notifications so... hmm what's the word...

s e q u e n t i a l l y

😅

Like I really do look at them one at a time, by time stamp... even if there's more in the same thread. Ahh well.

*dives into pillow cave...cracks glowstick* woop woop!

@Jynx all good, just glad you're here

I'm tired but feeling better, I haven't liked this week.

I like glow sticks

*starts poking glow sticks between the pillows so they look like fairy lights*

glowing pillow cave!

@avant-garde you'll never have to do this week again!! Begone, Ides of March!!

omg yes!!! Like little glow worms!! 😍

*shoves more in* rainbow glow worms omg what a gorgeous mental image - have you ever seen real ones before?

@Jynx I was thinking luminescent rocks due to minerals that react to moisture to create different colours #nerdalert

those minerals are how they create different coloured fireworks and flames like in the coloured flame birthday candles you can get.

There's something that I need some help with, can I talk about it with you?

@avant-garde I actually have some 'magic fire' packets for that very thing!! Rainbow fire very pretty!

Yes of course hun, I'm all ears 😊

@Jynx

my church is having a camp next week and I'm registered to go without knowing how I'm going to get there.

Due to the car accident and arthritis in my spine I find it very difficult to drive more than 30 minutes at a time.

The campsite is an hour away.

I can break it up on the way there, but the way back it's too late a finish for me to be able to break it up.

So someone will need to drive me.

This causes a number of insecurities to rise up

• What if there's no one
• What if they try to push me
• What if they don't see this as a serious thing that does stop me.

I'm scared no one will step up to take me, that I won't get to go because they don't take me seriously.

What do I do then?

@avant-garde hmm that is indeed a tricky one. Maybe have a think about which church members you think would be the most likely to be understanding/safe to ride with, and reach out to see if any of them would be able to offer the lift?

You could offer a simple explanation (you don't owe anyone details anyway) like, "Because of an injury/of arthritis from a car accident, I need to do trips in 30 minute stints. I would feel unsafe taking that break when driving home alone at night. Do you think you could provide a lift, and ensure we can do the trip in two 30 minute segments?"

How's that sound?

@Jynx when I'm a passenger I'm fine to go for longer because I can stretch and move about. It's the clutch that does it, the consistent needing to move my knees and feet that cause my lower back to start spasming. I can move if I need to as a passenger.

I've asked those I'm comfortable with and they all have kids so don't have space.

The family that did have space was the one that hit the bollard... but they said if they have a van by then I can go with them.

I've been told before that my injuries are an excuse and that I'm just lazy... yes by people in my church...

@avant-garde 😡😡

GRRR who be out here invalidating you like that!! So rude!! I am sorry hun, no surprise that you're feeling hesitant to want to ask for your needs to be met! Being told your needs are an excuse... an excuse for what?! I bet it's some awful narrative, like that you're lazy and trying to scam a lift from someone or something absolutely preposterous like that.

Sounds like your church has quite the mix, some good eggs sure, but some really nasty ones too. I'm sorry you have to put up with it hun. I hope a solution presents itself, one that feels safe and nice and not just all...last-resorty.