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Talking through trauma and PTSD

Running

Running

"Behind every strong person is a story that gave them no choice"

My life is all about a lack of choice.

I'm alive because death would've outed him, it would have sealed his fate in prison.

TW: cultic, rape, trafficking, torture

I'm the daughter of a Satanist...

One trained to breed...

One pregnant at 6 years old...

One prostituted to whoever could afford her...

The girl her dad didn't want...

One men hired to have fun with...

One men experimented with...

One who was tortured for speaking up...

One trained for the sole purpose to please her buyer...

Regardless of age...

Still though...

One who never stayed silent...

One who broke free... twice...

One who rose up...

One who seeks to prove them wrong...

One who has been running for 15 years...

One who just needs to feel heard...

One who went through hell and survived...

That this Phoenix can rise...

She will not be burned...

She's proven that...

I have proven that...

I'm 35 and 90% of those I've been in prolonged abusive situations insufficient evidence for prosecution

A system that protects the abuser more than the survivor

And yet I still try

I don't try for me, I try for the ones after me, the ones like me, that they will see their justice

But for now I run...

From a dad that wants me silenced...

From the nightmares that plague my sleep...

From the memories that invade my mind...

From the choices made for me...

Didn't expect that to come out as poetic as it did

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@Jynx it's like they're saying that what happened to me doesn't matter, that justice doesn't matter, that I don't matter. They didn't even let me finish!

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@avant-garde I have no words that could possibly encapsulate my anger. I'm so deeply sorry that the system has failed you so thoroughly.

The legal system does NOT dictate your worth. You matter, your experiences and your story matter, and nothing that they say can change the fact that you deserve justice.

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it hurts @Jynx it really hurts

*clutches my knees to my chest crying*

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@avant-garde *scoops you into more hugs, with bonus gentle head pats*

I wish I could chase all your pain away hun, I really do 🥺💜

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He's going to get away with it @Jynx he's going to get away with it and it feels like no one cares

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@avant-garde regardless of how the justice system responds - nothing can change the moral facts. I hope that God serves the justice you deserve, and gives your soul some rest hun.

What are you up to at the moment? Got more hugs here if you want em 😉

🫂🫂🫂

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@Jynx hugs would be appreciated

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@avant-garde we need a CUDDLE PUDDLE - stat!!

Love the puzzle!! Mmmm yum - is it coffee?

OH you have just reminded me, I wanted to show you something!! Let me get the pics uploaded - it's puzzle-related!

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@Jynx cuddle is a trigger word for me.

TW: sexual abuse

Content/trigger warning
The old men used to ask me to give them a "cuddle" meaning rape

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Thanks for telling me @avant-garde

Scratch that plan, many regular hugs being sent your way darlin.

🫂🫂🫂🫂

Did you wanna see the pics of the puzzle table my grandma has? It's what i was gonna upload - but also happy to just sit with you 💜

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