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Talking through trauma and PTSD

Running

Running

"Behind every strong person is a story that gave them no choice"

My life is all about a lack of choice.

I'm alive because death would've outed him, it would have sealed his fate in prison.

TW: cultic, rape, trafficking, torture

I'm the daughter of a Satanist...

One trained to breed...

One pregnant at 6 years old...

One prostituted to whoever could afford her...

The girl her dad didn't want...

One men hired to have fun with...

One men experimented with...

One who was tortured for speaking up...

One trained for the sole purpose to please her buyer...

Regardless of age...

Still though...

One who never stayed silent...

One who broke free... twice...

One who rose up...

One who seeks to prove them wrong...

One who has been running for 15 years...

One who just needs to feel heard...

One who went through hell and survived...

That this Phoenix can rise...

She will not be burned...

She's proven that...

I have proven that...

I'm 35 and 90% of those I've been in prolonged abusive situations insufficient evidence for prosecution

A system that protects the abuser more than the survivor

And yet I still try

I don't try for me, I try for the ones after me, the ones like me, that they will see their justice

But for now I run...

From a dad that wants me silenced...

From the nightmares that plague my sleep...

From the memories that invade my mind...

From the choices made for me...

Didn't expect that to come out as poetic as it did

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@rav3n she gave me time to be honest, it really helped

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@avant-garde yesss sounds like she gets it! patience is definitely key, i really hope things continue to go well with her!! do you friends outside of the church community that you connect with too?

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@rav3n she did say one thing... about the quiz night recently...

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@avant-garde ohh what did she say about it?

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@rav3n she said she got feedback that the questions... some of them... were inappropriate...

They were all school aged questions! this is what their kids are learning! and yes that includes puberty!

They're cutting it back to every 2 years...

And they want to "help more"

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@avant-garde did your friend agree about the questions being inappropriate too?

that's pretty disappointing that topics such as puberty are considered 'inappropriate' by some. i wonder why they would think that... especially since like you said, they do teach it in school.

wait so they're cutting the quiz to every 2 years because of the questions!?

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@rav3n my friend said so on the day...

Lack of people as well... I can't help a 70th birthday party!

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*curls up in a lightless corner in the shadows*

I'm not worthless... I'm not worthless...

@Ru-bee @rav3n @Jynx

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@avant-garde

*pounces on you for big hug*

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Gentle @Jynx

*bursts into tears*

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