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Talking through trauma and PTSD

Running

Running

"Behind every strong person is a story that gave them no choice"

My life is all about a lack of choice.

I'm alive because death would've outed him, it would have sealed his fate in prison.

TW: cultic, rape, trafficking, torture

I'm the daughter of a Satanist...

One trained to breed...

One pregnant at 6 years old...

One prostituted to whoever could afford her...

The girl her dad didn't want...

One men hired to have fun with...

One men experimented with...

One who was tortured for speaking up...

One trained for the sole purpose to please her buyer...

Regardless of age...

Still though...

One who never stayed silent...

One who broke free... twice...

One who rose up...

One who seeks to prove them wrong...

One who has been running for 15 years...

One who just needs to feel heard...

One who went through hell and survived...

That this Phoenix can rise...

She will not be burned...

She's proven that...

I have proven that...

I'm 35 and 90% of those I've been in prolonged abusive situations insufficient evidence for prosecution

A system that protects the abuser more than the survivor

And yet I still try

I don't try for me, I try for the ones after me, the ones like me, that they will see their justice

But for now I run...

From a dad that wants me silenced...

From the nightmares that plague my sleep...

From the memories that invade my mind...

From the choices made for me...

Didn't expect that to come out as poetic as it did

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Are you okay @avant-garde ?

Thinking about you.

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@tyme

Honestly? no

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Hello my sweet @avant-garde, I'm here if you would like to chat ❤️.

Sending you hugs beautiful ❤️.

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@MissGremlin

It's too raw for me not to breach guidelines if I were to say anything about it

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@avant-garde i hear you sweet. Know that I'm sitting with you, you're not alone ❤️.

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@MissGremlin

Are you still awake?

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@avant-garde i am sweetheart.

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TW: SA

Content/trigger warning
It's the holiday this coming Monday... with the fireworks on the waterfront... we were hidden from prying eyes... dad had a private spot for me... nobody could hear me as the men came... fireworks drowned them out

@MissGremlin

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@avant-garde oh sweetheart i hear you. I'm so sorry that this happened to you, i can't even imagine how you would be feeling as this holiday approaches.

I'm here for you beautiful ❤️.

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@MissGremlin

I get angry at everything it means for others and everything it means for me

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