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Talking through trauma and PTSD

Running

Running

"Behind every strong person is a story that gave them no choice"

My life is all about a lack of choice.

I'm alive because death would've outed him, it would have sealed his fate in prison.

TW: cultic, rape, trafficking, torture

I'm the daughter of a Satanist...

One trained to breed...

One pregnant at 6 years old...

One prostituted to whoever could afford her...

The girl her dad didn't want...

One men hired to have fun with...

One men experimented with...

One who was tortured for speaking up...

One trained for the sole purpose to please her buyer...

Regardless of age...

Still though...

One who never stayed silent...

One who broke free... twice...

One who rose up...

One who seeks to prove them wrong...

One who has been running for 15 years...

One who just needs to feel heard...

One who went through hell and survived...

That this Phoenix can rise...

She will not be burned...

She's proven that...

I have proven that...

I'm 35 and 90% of those I've been in prolonged abusive situations insufficient evidence for prosecution

A system that protects the abuser more than the survivor

And yet I still try

I don't try for me, I try for the ones after me, the ones like me, that they will see their justice

But for now I run...

From a dad that wants me silenced...

From the nightmares that plague my sleep...

From the memories that invade my mind...

From the choices made for me...

Didn't expect that to come out as poetic as it did

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@Jynx

No one's ever taken care of me, they take advantage of my resilience and capacity without seeing that they're the reason I have this capacity because of how much they've failed to be there when I've reached.

Behind every strong person is a story that gave them no choice.

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@MissGremlin

And the absolutely disgusting idiot with his perverted suggestions started this entire rollercoaster

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@avant-garde oh sweetheart, I'm so sorry that he did that. I'm here with you beautiful ❤️

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@MissGremlin

It was a museum tour about gold! We didn't need to hear about his "after hours recommendations"

I'm going to put in a complaint

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@avant-garde you are well within your rights to put in a complaint sweet.

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@MissGremlin

Ok, I've unpacked my suitcase

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@avant-garde well done for unpacking your suitcase sweet.

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@avant-garde have you got any plans for the weekend my sweet?

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@MissGremlin

I get to see my "routine" friends, the op shop I love and the gift store where I get nice things and my colleague who sells my jewellery.

She'll be excited to see the beads I picked up on my trip.

@moderator - I'm not sure what needs editing in this... why was it sent to "items for editing?"

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@avant-garde those all sound like such lovely things sweet.

Oohhh I'm glad you got to pick up some beads on your trip ☺️

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