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Talking through trauma and PTSD

Running

Running

"Behind every strong person is a story that gave them no choice"

My life is all about a lack of choice.

I'm alive because death would've outed him, it would have sealed his fate in prison.

TW: cultic, rape, trafficking, torture

I'm the daughter of a Satanist...

One trained to breed...

One pregnant at 6 years old...

One prostituted to whoever could afford her...

The girl her dad didn't want...

One men hired to have fun with...

One men experimented with...

One who was tortured for speaking up...

One trained for the sole purpose to please her buyer...

Regardless of age...

Still though...

One who never stayed silent...

One who broke free... twice...

One who rose up...

One who seeks to prove them wrong...

One who has been running for 15 years...

One who just needs to feel heard...

One who went through hell and survived...

That this Phoenix can rise...

She will not be burned...

She's proven that...

I have proven that...

I'm 35 and 90% of those I've been in prolonged abusive situations insufficient evidence for prosecution

A system that protects the abuser more than the survivor

And yet I still try

I don't try for me, I try for the ones after me, the ones like me, that they will see their justice

But for now I run...

From a dad that wants me silenced...

From the nightmares that plague my sleep...

From the memories that invade my mind...

From the choices made for me...

Didn't expect that to come out as poetic as it did

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@Jynx @ENKELI

Can you both take this to another thread because I'm finding it deeply upsetting and don't want to hear about it. Whatsoever.

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Absolutely understandable @avant-garde and thank you for communicating this boundary to us. @ENKELI feel free to reach out via team@saneforums.org if you like, we can sort things out there 😊

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@Jynx

I've had enough today, and that was all just a bit too much

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@Jynx I am getting email notifications.

@avant-garde yes, I find it deeply upsetting too but I am trying to fix it, not keep making it worse.

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@avant-garde I am sorry you are getting upset, I too was very hurt by actions caused by yourself I and at least apologised. I am so sorry you are going through all this but I can't accept some of the things you claim.

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@Jynx wrote:

Absolutely understandable @avant-garde and thank you for communicating this boundary to us. @ENKELI feel free to reach out via team@saneforums.org if you like, we can sort things out there 😊


@ENKELI

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I can see there's maybe some tension, but that also there's a lot of care for each other here - @avant-garde @ENKELI if either of you would like an email check in or posts removed or anything like that, just let me know 💜

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@Jynx I will email you privately so as not to get myself in trouble. Thanks for being such a sweetheart xoxo

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