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Talking through trauma and PTSD

Running

Running

"Behind every strong person is a story that gave them no choice"

My life is all about a lack of choice.

I'm alive because death would've outed him, it would have sealed his fate in prison.

TW: cultic, rape, trafficking, torture

I'm the daughter of a Satanist...

One trained to breed...

One pregnant at 6 years old...

One prostituted to whoever could afford her...

The girl her dad didn't want...

One men hired to have fun with...

One men experimented with...

One who was tortured for speaking up...

One trained for the sole purpose to please her buyer...

Regardless of age...

Still though...

One who never stayed silent...

One who broke free... twice...

One who rose up...

One who seeks to prove them wrong...

One who has been running for 15 years...

One who just needs to feel heard...

One who went through hell and survived...

That this Phoenix can rise...

She will not be burned...

She's proven that...

I have proven that...

I'm 35 and 90% of those I've been in prolonged abusive situations insufficient evidence for prosecution

A system that protects the abuser more than the survivor

And yet I still try

I don't try for me, I try for the ones after me, the ones like me, that they will see their justice

But for now I run...

From a dad that wants me silenced...

From the nightmares that plague my sleep...

From the memories that invade my mind...

From the choices made for me...

Didn't expect that to come out as poetic as it did

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@AuntGlow

Alchemise?

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Hug @avant-garde .

Thank you for sharing your vulnerabilties. I hear how hard things have been for you.

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Why the beep don't people get it!

I have NO family! my little sister is in hospital, in ICU and I can't see her! she's my best friend and it is so so hard that people just don't understand just how much she matters to me! why can't people just see that! she is the one that ignites my playful side! she's my best and oldest friend and people just don't understand what it's like to potentially lose the person you love and adore and cherish, who means more than family ever could! to lose ANOTHER person! to not be able to be there with her!

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Here with you @avant-garde This sounds so incredibly hard and you're right, family is about more than just who you're related to. I'm so sorry to hear that you're not able to see your dear friend right now, I can only imagine the emotions that you must be going through.

Please know that we're here for you 💜

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I love her @Ru-bee, I love her

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hey @avant-garde just saw your recent post. i'm so sorry to hear your best friend/lil sis is in the ICU. i hear how important she is to you, and i can see that you love her fiercely. even though you can't see her right now, the fact that you care for her and that you're thinking of her means a lot too. i'm praying that she'll get better soon. thinking of both you. 💙

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@rav3n

i ran out of tissues in my bag and my jaw hurts from crying

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hopefully the reception has some tissues for ya (or maybe the bathrooms too). i know that today's been emotionally heavy for you, so if you're able to, please do have some water/stay hydrated too? we're here with you 💙

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@rav3n pity i didn't get told before therapy, i got told straight after...

at least no one in the library stared at me crying or the pile of tissues underneath the monitor...

going through officeworks clearance site

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@avant-garde argh that timing sucks!! it's hard to properly grieve in public places (or at least i find it hard), glad nobody at the library made you feel uncomfy. how's the officeworks browse turning out?

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