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Talking through trauma and PTSD

Running

Running

"Behind every strong person is a story that gave them no choice"

My life is all about a lack of choice.

I'm alive because death would've outed him, it would have sealed his fate in prison.

TW: cultic, rape, trafficking, torture

I'm the daughter of a Satanist...

One trained to breed...

One pregnant at 6 years old...

One prostituted to whoever could afford her...

The girl her dad didn't want...

One men hired to have fun with...

One men experimented with...

One who was tortured for speaking up...

One trained for the sole purpose to please her buyer...

Regardless of age...

Still though...

One who never stayed silent...

One who broke free... twice...

One who rose up...

One who seeks to prove them wrong...

One who has been running for 15 years...

One who just needs to feel heard...

One who went through hell and survived...

That this Phoenix can rise...

She will not be burned...

She's proven that...

I have proven that...

I'm 35 and 90% of those I've been in prolonged abusive situations insufficient evidence for prosecution

A system that protects the abuser more than the survivor

And yet I still try

I don't try for me, I try for the ones after me, the ones like me, that they will see their justice

But for now I run...

From a dad that wants me silenced...

From the nightmares that plague my sleep...

From the memories that invade my mind...

From the choices made for me...

Didn't expect that to come out as poetic as it did

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@Jynx

I make weird noises too, they're called bodily functions...

True but no, my best friends know what my weird noises mean and I do growl

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Ahaha yessss @avant-garde embrace your inner feral!! My partner growls at me too.... I'm a fan 😋

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@Jynx

Flashback...

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Here with ya @avant-garde holding your hand 💜

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@Jynx

They they can't hurt me anymore

Safe

The the thing I find most difficult is that my body enjoyed it... it responded appropriately... it makes me feel disgusting

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Not your fault @avant-garde and not an indicator of some secret enjoyment or acceptance. Physiologically our bodies will respond to certain sensory inputs whether our brain wants us to or not. It's not an uncommon experience unfortunately.

What are you up to with yourself hun? Got something to focus your energy towards or you still regulating?

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@Jynx

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@Jynx

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Oooh what's that @avant-garde ? Pixel artistry?

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@Jynx nonograms, picture sudoku, using the numbers to identify what squares need that colour to create a picture

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