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Talking through trauma and PTSD

Running

Running

"Behind every strong person is a story that gave them no choice"

My life is all about a lack of choice.

I'm alive because death would've outed him, it would have sealed his fate in prison.

TW: cultic, rape, trafficking, torture

I'm the daughter of a Satanist...

One trained to breed...

One pregnant at 6 years old...

One prostituted to whoever could afford her...

The girl her dad didn't want...

One men hired to have fun with...

One men experimented with...

One who was tortured for speaking up...

One trained for the sole purpose to please her buyer...

Regardless of age...

Still though...

One who never stayed silent...

One who broke free... twice...

One who rose up...

One who seeks to prove them wrong...

One who has been running for 15 years...

One who just needs to feel heard...

One who went through hell and survived...

That this Phoenix can rise...

She will not be burned...

She's proven that...

I have proven that...

I'm 35 and 90% of those I've been in prolonged abusive situations insufficient evidence for prosecution

A system that protects the abuser more than the survivor

And yet I still try

I don't try for me, I try for the ones after me, the ones like me, that they will see their justice

But for now I run...

From a dad that wants me silenced...

From the nightmares that plague my sleep...

From the memories that invade my mind...

From the choices made for me...

Didn't expect that to come out as poetic as it did

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@Jynx

I actually wanted to ask you for a hug earlier...

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@avant-garde I got piles of em for ya hun, always

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How did you go packing? Same task tomorrow I bet? I'll be around tomorrow evening too 😊

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@Jynx

I was curled up against my door crying for an hour and a half and now just trying to fill the smaller boxes to make the task slightly more manageable

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@avant-garde I had a very big cry the other day myself. I imagine you're feeling even more fragile hun, I am sorry that it's so rough and that you are having to manage these feelings on top of it all.

You will be okay, I know you will. I hope you're staying hydrated my dear - crying always takes it outta me!!

I can stop by tomorrow to check in on you if you like 💜

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@Jynx

I think I would like that

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And here I am hehe @avant-garde hello. How was your day?

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@Jynx

I don't know what negative word can summarise how I'm feeling right now.

What I do know is that my "brother" deserves some very angry and hurtful words right now

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Sounds very rough @avant-garde - a vent is needed mayhap?

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@Jynx

Maybe, but I don't know if I'm allowed to swear on here

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@avant-garde I dunno if the profanity filter is working at the moment to be honest. I think if you pop it behind a TW it would be okay. Or censor the words - like sh!t and f**k - dunno if that gives the same feeling as swearing fully though. I definitely want you to feel like you can express yourself!

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