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Talking through trauma and PTSD

Running

Running

"Behind every strong person is a story that gave them no choice"

My life is all about a lack of choice.

I'm alive because death would've outed him, it would have sealed his fate in prison.

TW: cultic, rape, trafficking, torture

I'm the daughter of a Satanist...

One trained to breed...

One pregnant at 6 years old...

One prostituted to whoever could afford her...

The girl her dad didn't want...

One men hired to have fun with...

One men experimented with...

One who was tortured for speaking up...

One trained for the sole purpose to please her buyer...

Regardless of age...

Still though...

One who never stayed silent...

One who broke free... twice...

One who rose up...

One who seeks to prove them wrong...

One who has been running for 15 years...

One who just needs to feel heard...

One who went through hell and survived...

That this Phoenix can rise...

She will not be burned...

She's proven that...

I have proven that...

I'm 35 and 90% of those I've been in prolonged abusive situations insufficient evidence for prosecution

A system that protects the abuser more than the survivor

And yet I still try

I don't try for me, I try for the ones after me, the ones like me, that they will see their justice

But for now I run...

From a dad that wants me silenced...

From the nightmares that plague my sleep...

From the memories that invade my mind...

From the choices made for me...

Didn't expect that to come out as poetic as it did

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Hi @avant-garde, Rav3n has finished up for the day but I can sit and breathe with you if that's helpful 💜

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@Ru-bee

I thought the inspection was next week

I got a message saying it was a different property

I'm normally somewhere else when they happen

I make a point to not be here

I didn't expect it to be today

I've had enough anxiety today

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Oh, that would be stressful @avant-garde Keep on breathing

When are they coming?

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@Ru-bee

He came when I was still home, when I sent that last message to Rav3n

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How are you feeling now @avant-garde?

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@Ru-bee

Being with my best friend is helping, we're watching beyond paradise season 2 Christmas special

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I'm glad you're with your best friend @avant-garde

I've never watched beyond paradise, it looks like a british crime drama? I do like a good one of those

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@Ru-bee

You'd need to watch death in paradise first, it's a spin off from that

I wish I could say that I'm coping right now but I'd be lying

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hey @avant-garde sorry to hear how anxiety-inducing yesterday was for you, it's tough when the unexpected happens. how are you holding up today?

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My case manager called me today... I've been allocated a house in government housing... I get to see it with her tomorrow...

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