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Talking through trauma and PTSD

Running

Running

"Behind every strong person is a story that gave them no choice"

My life is all about a lack of choice.

I'm alive because death would've outed him, it would have sealed his fate in prison.

TW: cultic, rape, trafficking, torture

I'm the daughter of a Satanist...

One trained to breed...

One pregnant at 6 years old...

One prostituted to whoever could afford her...

The girl her dad didn't want...

One men hired to have fun with...

One men experimented with...

One who was tortured for speaking up...

One trained for the sole purpose to please her buyer...

Regardless of age...

Still though...

One who never stayed silent...

One who broke free... twice...

One who rose up...

One who seeks to prove them wrong...

One who has been running for 15 years...

One who just needs to feel heard...

One who went through hell and survived...

That this Phoenix can rise...

She will not be burned...

She's proven that...

I have proven that...

I'm 35 and 90% of those I've been in prolonged abusive situations insufficient evidence for prosecution

A system that protects the abuser more than the survivor

And yet I still try

I don't try for me, I try for the ones after me, the ones like me, that they will see their justice

But for now I run...

From a dad that wants me silenced...

From the nightmares that plague my sleep...

From the memories that invade my mind...

From the choices made for me...

Didn't expect that to come out as poetic as it did

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@tyme

All I wanted was people from my church to invite me over for dinner... to not judge me on the take out bags in my car... when quality time is your love language and you're too busy packing up and trying to figure out where you're going to sleep that night... I just needed someone to give me the time of day... to care... tell me they're thinking of me... offer to do my laundry or let me use their machine... have a cup of coffee with me...

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Awww @avant-garde ,

I guess this is beyond my comprehension because in my church, people drop in to stay all the time or the church helps people find places to stay., and give them food, clothes etc. They would never just leave them without shelter or food.

So what you are sharing is so foreign to me.

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@tyme

They trusted Delilah had it all sorted...

I had "savings" to pay for accommodation

Delilah was why I was homeless

I think I'm done talking about it

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Hugs @avant-garde .

You are so brave. Thank you for sharing.

Period.

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oh i love that idea for the newsletter @avant-garde!! i've noted it down, would it be apart of the 'hacks and facts' or is that a separate topic?

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@rav3n

Separate, I'd like to only do one piece, either hacks and facts or this one for the upcoming edition. I don't mind which

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sounds great! we were thinking of limiting it to one topic per person as well so that works perfectly for us too @avant-garde we'll reach out via email after July 1st and maybe then you can let us know which topic you'd like to do for the first newsletter. i'm so excited for those topics!!

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Heya @avant-garde 🙂

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Hey @tyme

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You going to church over the weekend? @avant-garde

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