Running

@rav3n

It's definitely taken it's toll on my mental health, having to rehash my story and what's going on over and over again. It didn't help that the one before this one was unprofessional and constantly gaslit me. Breathe. This one at the moment, I haven't been able to talk about it.

At least with this one I'll be able to come back after I finish with these other agencies. One of the waitlists is to do EMDR with me.

Drawing I think, but I did find the coloured pencils I had today to be inadequate so got a half decent set afterwards, not a cheap school set.

Don't know what we're cooking until the day usually.

@avant-garde yep, that makes sense and it definitely is a lot to keep rehashing it. ugh so sorry to hear about the gaslighting that happened too!! got my fingers crossed that things speed up with the waitlist. how are you feeling about starting EDMR?

oh yeah, the quality of pencils really make a different, hey! i think i prefer drawing things over colouring too.

i gotta hop off soon but i'll catch you next week, take care 💙

I'm not ok and I need someone to just hear me and not gaslight me, not tell me I'm wrong and not tell me that I'm deaf and hearing things

hey @avant-garde we're here to listen. what's been happening for you? sounds like someone's been invalidating your experience?

I was at my usual Thursday meeting...

TW: rape, sexualised language, violence

I spoke up and said it's not ok

They all started saying I was hearing things, they were joking, that it's all in my head, they wouldn't joke about "that", they main "issue" said that this isn't the first time I've been wrong...

@rav3n

@Jynx this one

wow, those are definitely some concerning 'jokes' to be throwing around... i'm sorry that they didn't acknowledge your response and became defensive instead. @avant-garde

there is often a lot of taboo around discussing 'female pleasure' and it is an important topic, however i reckon there is a certain time and place to hold those discussions and it sounds like it wasn't being held respectfully in this space today. i also think you have every right to share what is and isn't comfortable for you, and it sucks that they didn't validate that.

@tyme

It hurts you know

The everyday things I missed were home cooked meals, hot chocolate, even having access to a fridge, kettle, microwave...

One thing the homeless woman you know would probably really appreciate is just something she couldn't make herself anymore.

Thank you for sharing your insights @avant-garde . It is so powerful. There's nothing more powerful than hearing it from a person who has gone through it.

@tyme

Maybe in a future edition of the newsletter... maybe even this one... I could write practical tips to mentally support the homeless...

Please let the newsletter team know @avant-garde !

@Ru-bee @rav3n , please see @avant-garde idea above 🙂