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Talking through trauma and PTSD

Running

Running

"Behind every strong person is a story that gave them no choice"

My life is all about a lack of choice.

I'm alive because death would've outed him, it would have sealed his fate in prison.

TW: cultic, rape, trafficking, torture

I'm the daughter of a Satanist...

One trained to breed...

One pregnant at 6 years old...

One prostituted to whoever could afford her...

The girl her dad didn't want...

One men hired to have fun with...

One men experimented with...

One who was tortured for speaking up...

One trained for the sole purpose to please her buyer...

Regardless of age...

Still though...

One who never stayed silent...

One who broke free... twice...

One who rose up...

One who seeks to prove them wrong...

One who has been running for 15 years...

One who just needs to feel heard...

One who went through hell and survived...

That this Phoenix can rise...

She will not be burned...

She's proven that...

I have proven that...

I'm 35 and 90% of those I've been in prolonged abusive situations insufficient evidence for prosecution

A system that protects the abuser more than the survivor

And yet I still try

I don't try for me, I try for the ones after me, the ones like me, that they will see their justice

But for now I run...

From a dad that wants me silenced...

From the nightmares that plague my sleep...

From the memories that invade my mind...

From the choices made for me...

Didn't expect that to come out as poetic as it did

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Hi @avant-garde , Let me know if you are looking for support and what support might look like for you at this time. I'm not ignoring your previous post, but I wasn't sure if you were wanting a response.

I'm here if you need anything.

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@tyme

Didn't think you were ignoring me, my case manager and I had a plan in place for if I needed support tonight and I am glad we made a plan. Spent 45 minutes talking to a local specialised support service. She was lovely and understanding.

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Glad to hear you have a plan in place for if you needed support and you were able to reach out to someone @avant-garde

From my experience, reaching out can be quite a difficult step.

Please know we are sitting with you.

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Been thinking about you my beautiful friend @avant-garde ❤️. Sending you the biggest hugs possible, you are amazing ❤️

 

 

 

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@MissGremlin

I am weird though and I like it

The dental clinic just called and I bombarded her with questions.

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@avant-garde I'm with you there, being weird is the best 😊.

Oh was she able to answer your questions though?

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@MissGremlin yes

Hey ummm... that last picture is triggering for me... it's something last year's abuser used to say about herself... I got her a magnet that says the same thing...

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@avant-garde i got you, it's gone, never existed. Sorry sweet.

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@MissGremlin

That's ok, that's why I spoke up

I overwhelmed her with questions and she had to go ask, but yes I got my answers.

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@avant-garde I'm glad you let me know. I'm truly sorry that i triggered you though.

I'm glad she went to go and ask and that you got your answers.

How are you feeling today?

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