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Talking through trauma and PTSD

Running

Running

"Behind every strong person is a story that gave them no choice"

My life is all about a lack of choice.

I'm alive because death would've outed him, it would have sealed his fate in prison.

TW: cultic, rape, trafficking, torture

I'm the daughter of a Satanist...

One trained to breed...

One pregnant at 6 years old...

One prostituted to whoever could afford her...

The girl her dad didn't want...

One men hired to have fun with...

One men experimented with...

One who was tortured for speaking up...

One trained for the sole purpose to please her buyer...

Regardless of age...

Still though...

One who never stayed silent...

One who broke free... twice...

One who rose up...

One who seeks to prove them wrong...

One who has been running for 15 years...

One who just needs to feel heard...

One who went through hell and survived...

That this Phoenix can rise...

She will not be burned...

She's proven that...

I have proven that...

I'm 35 and 90% of those I've been in prolonged abusive situations insufficient evidence for prosecution

A system that protects the abuser more than the survivor

And yet I still try

I don't try for me, I try for the ones after me, the ones like me, that they will see their justice

But for now I run...

From a dad that wants me silenced...

From the nightmares that plague my sleep...

From the memories that invade my mind...

From the choices made for me...

Didn't expect that to come out as poetic as it did

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@Jynx figured you would like them. They had a Snorlax, they were also $18 each. They had a purple Eevee.

How are you?

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*curls up on the Snorlax bean bag*

*Holds Eevee plushie*

*Magics special mum blanket over me*

*Drifts off quietly*

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@Jynx

I know you're solo... it's fine, I get it

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Thanks for the understanding @avant-garde 😊

I'm going okay, just been taking everything slowly of late. Yourself?

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@Jynx

I'm ok...

you seemed off on Monday... I thought I did something wrong or upset you...

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@avant-garde nah not at all hun, if I was upet with you I would tell you. Just been busy and dealing with some life stress.

Hope you're travelling okay?

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@Jynx

You're about to log off, I'm not opening that can of worms now

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@avant-garde aye maybe so but I'll always be back. And there's always others around too, one of the reasons this place is so great 💜 So feel free to share whenever you are ready. I'm hearing there's worms and that's no good. Sending you some hugs hun 🫂

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@Jynx

I'm having trouble tolerating the current level of distress right now from the addition of new ear worms today...

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@avant-garde oh you mean like songs? Stuck in brain?

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