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Talking through trauma and PTSD

Running

Running

"Behind every strong person is a story that gave them no choice"

My life is all about a lack of choice.

I'm alive because death would've outed him, it would have sealed his fate in prison.

TW: cultic, rape, trafficking, torture

I'm the daughter of a Satanist...

One trained to breed...

One pregnant at 6 years old...

One prostituted to whoever could afford her...

The girl her dad didn't want...

One men hired to have fun with...

One men experimented with...

One who was tortured for speaking up...

One trained for the sole purpose to please her buyer...

Regardless of age...

Still though...

One who never stayed silent...

One who broke free... twice...

One who rose up...

One who seeks to prove them wrong...

One who has been running for 15 years...

One who just needs to feel heard...

One who went through hell and survived...

That this Phoenix can rise...

She will not be burned...

She's proven that...

I have proven that...

I'm 35 and 90% of those I've been in prolonged abusive situations insufficient evidence for prosecution

A system that protects the abuser more than the survivor

And yet I still try

I don't try for me, I try for the ones after me, the ones like me, that they will see their justice

But for now I run...

From a dad that wants me silenced...

From the nightmares that plague my sleep...

From the memories that invade my mind...

From the choices made for me...

Didn't expect that to come out as poetic as it did

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@avant-garde I haven't even started counting 🫣

I think I will reserve tomorrow arvo between 3-5pm for that task!! Hope it doesn't take me that long, eep!

Sounds like there's been some heavy feels for you hun, sorry to hear it. Here with you 💜

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@Jynx

I can send through/upload the images I have with numbers if that helps, you can get a kind of idea...

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Whatever's clever @avant-garde up to you!! I also kinda don't mind the challenge, sounds like something I could get lost in!!

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@Jynx it would mean you have more time interacting on the forums tomorrow, so I like that idea

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@Jynx sent

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@avant-garde ahaha of course

It shall be an eggcellent day!

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@avant-garde wrote:

I'm concerned about the time of day for the 15 week one, where it would land in terms of my schedule...

Whether the groups would fit in with me and all...

All while dealing with the emotional toll of this mess she left me in!


@Jynx

Can we talk about this?

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@avant-garde we can, I might need a liiiiittle more context?

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@Jynx

Asking for context is as helpful to me as asking me to see through strawberry milk.

But I was asking about the sane 15 week program, assuming that was obvious... I don't know how it works with having 3/4 different time zones in Australia.

Please ask questions, I know how to answer those typically

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lol nah that was legit all the context I needed @avant-garde

So I am not too sure about those kinds of details, tho I presume the majority of our frontline workforce is located on the east coast. However we'd obviously try to work to fit into your schedule where possible I would hope. Alas, not really the one with those answers!! Want me to rustle you up someone who does?

Maybe @0ddsidian ?

As for whether you'd fit in with the groups - do you mean socially or logistically?

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