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Talking through trauma and PTSD

Running

Running

"Behind every strong person is a story that gave them no choice"

My life is all about a lack of choice.

I'm alive because death would've outed him, it would have sealed his fate in prison.

TW: cultic, rape, trafficking, torture

I'm the daughter of a Satanist...

One trained to breed...

One pregnant at 6 years old...

One prostituted to whoever could afford her...

The girl her dad didn't want...

One men hired to have fun with...

One men experimented with...

One who was tortured for speaking up...

One trained for the sole purpose to please her buyer...

Regardless of age...

Still though...

One who never stayed silent...

One who broke free... twice...

One who rose up...

One who seeks to prove them wrong...

One who has been running for 15 years...

One who just needs to feel heard...

One who went through hell and survived...

That this Phoenix can rise...

She will not be burned...

She's proven that...

I have proven that...

I'm 35 and 90% of those I've been in prolonged abusive situations insufficient evidence for prosecution

A system that protects the abuser more than the survivor

And yet I still try

I don't try for me, I try for the ones after me, the ones like me, that they will see their justice

But for now I run...

From a dad that wants me silenced...

From the nightmares that plague my sleep...

From the memories that invade my mind...

From the choices made for me...

Didn't expect that to come out as poetic as it did

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@Jynx

I hate how flashbacks can ruin a good mood, a good day...

*bursts into tears shaking*

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@avant-garde does the day always stay ruined tho? 🤔

*Holds you close*

whether it is or isn't salvageable is less important tho than right here n now. I got you hun.

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@Jynx

We'll see

Just breathing and drawing, solidifying my lead

 

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Aww cute AND clever @avant-garde I love it!

Gonna add colours?

Ohhhh nooooo the time weasels are up to their tricks again!! How is it nearly 10pm already 🤔

More hugs incoming hun, hope that the drawing has been helping 💜

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@Jynx

You said photos of drawings, you didn't say they couldn't be our own drawings...

 

I'll post it in the egg hunt tomorrow

The drawing gives me something to focus on, similar to my nonograms

 i honestly don't care if I win the egg hunt, I just like giving everyone else someone to beat. I won my prize today. Doesn't mean I'm not going to try though.

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@avant-garde yesssss good!! I WANTED people to draw!! Muahahaha!!

I figured, not everyone is able to get out and about to take photos, so including drawings and illustrations hopefully makes it more accessible for everyone!!

Keep it coming cool cat!! Can't wait to see how things look when I jump back in on Tuesday hehehe.

Thanks for chats as always lovely, *one last huuuuuug* and I shall bid you adieu!! 💜

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@tyme

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@rav3n

Hi

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hey 😊 @avant-garde how are you?

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@rav3n

  • Overstimulated
  • Overwhelmed
  • Undercaffeinated

You?

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