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Talking through trauma and PTSD

Running

Running

"Behind every strong person is a story that gave them no choice"

My life is all about a lack of choice.

I'm alive because death would've outed him, it would have sealed his fate in prison.

TW: cultic, rape, trafficking, torture

I'm the daughter of a Satanist...

One trained to breed...

One pregnant at 6 years old...

One prostituted to whoever could afford her...

The girl her dad didn't want...

One men hired to have fun with...

One men experimented with...

One who was tortured for speaking up...

One trained for the sole purpose to please her buyer...

Regardless of age...

Still though...

One who never stayed silent...

One who broke free... twice...

One who rose up...

One who seeks to prove them wrong...

One who has been running for 15 years...

One who just needs to feel heard...

One who went through hell and survived...

That this Phoenix can rise...

She will not be burned...

She's proven that...

I have proven that...

I'm 35 and 90% of those I've been in prolonged abusive situations insufficient evidence for prosecution

A system that protects the abuser more than the survivor

And yet I still try

I don't try for me, I try for the ones after me, the ones like me, that they will see their justice

But for now I run...

From a dad that wants me silenced...

From the nightmares that plague my sleep...

From the memories that invade my mind...

From the choices made for me...

Didn't expect that to come out as poetic as it did

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Teehee @avant-garde shucks!! You always make me blush.

You started on your chocolate stash yet?

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@Jynx

The white chocolate bunny was melting so yes

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@avant-garde mmmm melty chocolate is soooo tasty!!

No more hopping for that bun hehe!

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@Jynx

Can I get a hug?

Child Sexual Abuse (TW)

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@avant-garde you can have as many as you like - here's two to start 😋

🫂🫂

Just finished reading. Incdredibly powerful, thank you for sharing the link. I think I will show this to my partner, they have C-PTSD from their abusive childhood and I think this is one of those 'Oh finally someone put it into words' kinds of pieces. I hope that's okay 😚

Your writing is incredible, I'm grateful to be able to bear witness to it and to your story 🙏💜

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@Jynx

I'm doing better today, but I'm still not quite there yet after sharing all that... remembering how many people failed me growing up...


@Jynx wrote:

I think this is one of those 'Oh finally someone put it into words' kinds of pieces.


I get that a lot... I seem to be good with words...

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@avant-garde I can imagine. Took a lot of guts, for sure. Have you been able to get some rest today or has your body been too jumbley from the big feels?

You are! I think it's cos.... you write with integrity. Authenticity. So the words carry weight. Just my two cents 😉

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@Jynx

Woke up early for a Saturday with a throbbing headache

Washing routine, the raffle prize helped, taking it easier now though

My writing is very raw and I'm not afraid of being real with it, it's a gentler way of being real...

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@Jynx

Flashback...

Very bad Easter memories

*rocks quietly in the corner, gripping my head, teeth clenched, eyes shut*

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Glad I saw this before I responded to the above @avant-garde you may have gotten inappropriately dosed with my silly.

DW, got my gentle face on, here with ya hun 💜

Want to do some grounding? Let me know what you reckon you might be needing 🫂🫂

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