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Talking through trauma and PTSD

Running

Running

"Behind every strong person is a story that gave them no choice"

My life is all about a lack of choice.

I'm alive because death would've outed him, it would have sealed his fate in prison.

TW: cultic, rape, trafficking, torture

I'm the daughter of a Satanist...

One trained to breed...

One pregnant at 6 years old...

One prostituted to whoever could afford her...

The girl her dad didn't want...

One men hired to have fun with...

One men experimented with...

One who was tortured for speaking up...

One trained for the sole purpose to please her buyer...

Regardless of age...

Still though...

One who never stayed silent...

One who broke free... twice...

One who rose up...

One who seeks to prove them wrong...

One who has been running for 15 years...

One who just needs to feel heard...

One who went through hell and survived...

That this Phoenix can rise...

She will not be burned...

She's proven that...

I have proven that...

I'm 35 and 90% of those I've been in prolonged abusive situations insufficient evidence for prosecution

A system that protects the abuser more than the survivor

And yet I still try

I don't try for me, I try for the ones after me, the ones like me, that they will see their justice

But for now I run...

From a dad that wants me silenced...

From the nightmares that plague my sleep...

From the memories that invade my mind...

From the choices made for me...

Didn't expect that to come out as poetic as it did

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Totally makes sense... @avant-garde

I would feel hurt if I was belittled/invalidated like that...

Alternatively, go to your last session - it might surprise you? IDK lol

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@tyme

Oh you meant to write a letter instead of going to my last session

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Up to you @avant-garde

You can go to your last session and just before leaving, hand them the letter. OR you can not go and just given them the letter?

Totally your call.

The main thing is that you don't want to come out feeling worse than what you did going in!

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@tyme

the sessions haven't felt like mine for over a month now, I come out feeling downtrodden, hurt, shaken, overwhelmed and unable to process what the heck just happened...

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Awww hugs @avant-garde . I'm sorry you have had to go through this. Will you have any other sessions after this set?

For me, I reckon I'd want to set MY boundaries from the very beginning and share what works for me and what doesn't.

This may be helpful for future sessions?

BIG HUGS to you @avant-garde .

I'm about to hop off, but thanks for connecting with me tonight! I always love hearing your progress.

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*pokes @Jynx gently*

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@avant-garde *giggles* eeeehehehe I am so ticklish!!

Hey darlin, how's you?

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@Jynx can I get a hug please

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@avant-garde would you like a big ol' bear hug?

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@Jynx

No, a gentle 'I've got you, you're ok now" hug

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