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Talking through trauma and PTSD

Running

Running

"Behind every strong person is a story that gave them no choice"

My life is all about a lack of choice.

I'm alive because death would've outed him, it would have sealed his fate in prison.

TW: cultic, rape, trafficking, torture

I'm the daughter of a Satanist...

One trained to breed...

One pregnant at 6 years old...

One prostituted to whoever could afford her...

The girl her dad didn't want...

One men hired to have fun with...

One men experimented with...

One who was tortured for speaking up...

One trained for the sole purpose to please her buyer...

Regardless of age...

Still though...

One who never stayed silent...

One who broke free... twice...

One who rose up...

One who seeks to prove them wrong...

One who has been running for 15 years...

One who just needs to feel heard...

One who went through hell and survived...

That this Phoenix can rise...

She will not be burned...

She's proven that...

I have proven that...

I'm 35 and 90% of those I've been in prolonged abusive situations insufficient evidence for prosecution

A system that protects the abuser more than the survivor

And yet I still try

I don't try for me, I try for the ones after me, the ones like me, that they will see their justice

But for now I run...

From a dad that wants me silenced...

From the nightmares that plague my sleep...

From the memories that invade my mind...

From the choices made for me...

Didn't expect that to come out as poetic as it did

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*curls up quietly in @Jynx's arms*

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@avant-garde *very soft hugs and gentle songs*

Today is nearly done, you'll never have to do it again 😉

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I just want to feel something @Jynx

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@avant-garde aye, numbness is awful... your brain may still be protecting you?

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@Jynx

I imagine the walls will come crashing down when I get home

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@avant-garde mm makes sense. Hopefully not much for you to do tonight?

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@Jynx not sure, may still have to go out

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@avant-garde grrrr
unless it is a fun outing?

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@Jynx not typically fun, good for me but not fun

The emotions have started hitting

*noticeably shakes*

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@avant-garde hope it is minimal not-fun, maximal good-for-you then if you go hun.

They are big and they might take over, but just reminding ya that emotions are always temporary💜

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