Can't stop crying - what the heck is wrong with me now?

Thank you sincerely for everyone thinking of me. I really do appreciate it.

Since not a single one of my family members can be bothered speaking to me on my special day, I've wiped them from my existence. End of.

Well more bad news from my front. As bad as my mental health is right now, I am having to cancel my therapy appointment as my gf is having an operation on her foot the day before and I have to care for her instead of going (my appointment is in another town). My house of cards is collapsing, as I was holding out for those appointments to finally get some help for myself. Without these appointments, I cannot access respite, so that's it then. I can't be helped!

@Queenie Can't someone else be there for your girlfriend. This appointment for you is as important as having surgery yourself. It seems like there may be a way to do both. It's not just an appointment, it's as important as having a pre surgery appointment. May be you need to tell your gf this. You are deserving of health care as much as she is. It doesn't feel like it should be a you or her scenario but a both scenario. Can you find someone to be with her while you have your appointment? Sorry coming across as bossy in this post but just really wanting you to get the help you deserve. 💜🤗

@Former-Member you're not coming across as bossy (so don't worry). My gf just point blank told me I'd have to cancel this morning after she returned from her appointment, so I don't know. I know getting to my appointments will be hard as I don't drive (she does) and nobody will be able to take me. Public transport is impossible as there isn't any to where I am going and because of the distance (about 80km), I can't afford a taxi that far.

I'd ask family but seeing as they didn't even see how I was on my birthday yesterday, I don't like my chances at all.

I know this appointment is crucial to my care, but I just don't see another way around it unfortunately. If I didn't move in with my gf and stayed where I was, I could of walked because it was in the same area as the appointment.

Hey @Queenie I'm so sorry your in a really tight spot. Could you ring your psych and explain and ask to make it a phone appointment under the circumstances. Even if you have to walk outside or down the street for an hour for the phone appointment. I'm sure she'd be ok with that. There is a saying that I love. It goes "I'll look after me for you if you look after you for me". I find this a really powerful statement and if I'm ever lucky enough to have another relationship this will be my foundation. Can you work this out with her?

Your gf needs to learn to balance her health needs and your health needs.

Can she or you negotiate another time?

Can her mother help?

Call the office and see what they suggest about respite and rescheduling your appointment. If there is no PT then is there another region that you could get PT for ..

You deserve to be able to make your session. @Queenie

@Former-Member, I hadn't thought of that! I might ask his receptionist. I just don't feel I can miss this appointment. My paranoia is growing by the day, so Monday I'll ring his office as soon as it opens.

Sounds like a plan @Queenie 👍😊💜