Hi @Former-Member
I can't possible talk to everyone who sends messages to this site - but I have special people who I feel I understand and I can read their struggle without it being too much for me and you are one of those people
It will take time - you have been struggling all the time I have known you - which is some months now - and I know you spent a long time in hospital - and then took a leave of absence for a while - but when you have been posting I can say I have noticed that you are improving - but from experience I know that people do not always feel better during that time - and I think that is because they are so busy beating the odds in their lives they feel very delicate at times - and things really really get to them
When people struggle they get somewhere - it's the people who don't who go down - I have every faith in you - but I have been through the mill myself and know
About your nightmares - I used to have horrific nightmares myself - and night terrors - which have stopped now - for years - and the recurring nightmares are infrequent now - so I could say that with time your nightmares will not always be so horrific
But they are terrifying and I have been afraid to sleep because of them - I think they are part of our brain reorganising itself - and it takes time -
But I got help talking to a psychiatrist about them - that's how long ago it was since they were bad - and rewrote the end of the nightmare that I had over and over again - and now it different
It's really hard to deal with things that are out of control - how can we get a handle on something we cannot actually grab hold of and deal with?
Thinking of you
Dec
