Red's house

It's not 11 here yet. Lunch will come later i guess. @Shaz51 i plan on cooking a chilli stir-fry noodles with tofu.

That is if i manage to get out bed again. Pain sucks. Life sucks.

Ohh it is nearly 1pm here @The-red-centaur

Ohh that sounds nice 😋 to cook

Hi @The-red-centaur I just wanted to check in on how you're going today?

It sounds like you've had a really eventful couple of weeks with the move and the holidays, all of that can really take it's toll. I hope that you've been able to get some rest since then

Hey there @The-red-centaur !

@tyme @Ru-bee hey.

Im sore and tired. I went for a small bush walk and finished decorating my living room today.

I don't know if I should reach out to anyone or talk about things to people other than my support workers. It's been a real challenge pushing through lately. A lot of my other supports are on leave, so there isn't anyone anyway. Idk.

Im so tired.

Do you feel like you need some more support right now @The-red-centaur?

Good on you for going for that walk and decorating, even though you've been feeling so tired. Are you able to have a restful afternoon/evening tonight?

@Ru-bee I'm not sure. My thoughts feel dark.

I have been really trying to get back into things, to push myself to make a routine, get exercise, fresh air, do life stuff.

It's 2.30. I'm exhausted and very sore. I will spend the rest of the day in bed probably.

I find I have most of my energy in the mornings. I do things when I can. I probably push myself too hard but someone has to or I do nothing.

I feel like I've been wasting my life doing a lot of nothing. As the years go by things get worse, no matter what I've done, my body deteriates and the life slowly fades from my eyes.

Its great that you've had that insight into your energy levels @The-red-centaur - knowing that the morning is probably the best time to do things and then being able to rest in the afternoon

If you're feeling like you might not be safe right now because of any dark thoughts, it sounds like reaching out to talk to someone would be a good idea. Are any of your support workers around? Or do you feel like calling lifeline would be a good idea?

@Ru-bee

Sorry it took me a while to respond.

I was chatting with my dad. He told me my pop had a stroke today.

I feel more mixed up now. Sitting in numbness. I don't think I'll be able to talk now. Um. I might hop ofline a bit. Replying to people is overwhelming. I can't offer much to others rn. They need better support than mine.

I might get my support worker. Or sleep but that scare me. Idk.

I don't trust myself rn.