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creative_writerSenior Contributor
Hi all
I’ll be spending some time away from the forums since I’m not doing so good, no safety concerns, but I think I’m just simply too much for everyone here on the forums. My emotions are too much. May brain is too much. I don’t want to drown people in my pain, everyone is better off with me off the forums. I hope our paths cross again. Will say goodbye and wish you all the best. Sorry for being a pain
creative_writer
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SnowieSenior Contributor
Can you try some poetry at all @creative_writer
Maybe getting it out of your head might help.
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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SnowieSenior Contributor
You're not stupid @creative_writer just a bad mindset at the moment.
Give yourself time. Whatever you try to do just give it time. We can't always fix things straight away.
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JynxModerator
Hey @creative_writer sorry to hear it's rough going at the moment!
Poetry has absolutely nothing to do with 'smarts' - it's all about the feeling! Could always give it a crack and just see where you land?
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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JynxModerator
@creative_writer hmm sounds tricky hun, tho curious how it would stop joy? All joy? Ever again?
I am only making guesses about what you're mulling over so forgive me if the answer should be obvious...
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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JynxModerator
Thanks for the context @creative_writer that makes more sense (my brain was stuck on SH lol).
I think you've tapped into one of the things that kept me going once upon a time. That ending my life would end my suffering, yes.... but it would end the possibility of everything else too. And it's not like there'd be any 'me' left to 'enjoy' the lack of suffering.
For some reason I've just been reminded of this:
Reminds me that even amongst all the bad, when I do feel joy it is the sweetest feeling, and I believe it is made even sweeter because it is being compared to those dark, hollow feelings - and it almost feels like the joy has temporarily obliterated them from my body.
What was the last thing that brought you joy?
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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JynxModerator
Mm makes sense @creative_writer - and in my experience, we only tend to begin processing our stuff when we're ready to, so maybe you're just more 'ready' now? I mean, even if we're ready in our inner world though, doesn't mean it's going to be good timing in relation to the rest of what's going on in our lives 😅
Ooh I like that... like there's a joy to be found within a sense of calm. I have always felt like joy and contentment were related... like they're the same emotion, one is just higher energy. How have the videos and breathwork been working out for you so far tonight?
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