Is there anybody out there (wanna lend me a hand)

@tyme @OM108 and anyone who may be familiar with the old adage "misery loves company". I have some bad news good news to share tonight. The bad news is that there is no good news. 😅🤣 I refuse to open the door answer the phone attend a pdoc or medical appointment ever again. We had a storm last night and both my outdoor cats who both think there are monsters hiding under the floorboards were indoors under the doona. Tonight I'm under the doona wearing my snuggy with the hood over my head that my dear friend gave me for my birthday. It's like a big warm hug. Sadly the candles will be lit again for the next few days and the tears will put them out. And no of course my echo wasn't good. Medication, no salt and eat nothing nice diet to lose 15k and somehow lower the blood pressure to the level of the dalai lama. No pressure. No stress. I also have the leaky brain cyst blood test that has to be done when I'm calm first thing in the am and fasting. My beautiful psychologist asked which century? In regard to the calm. 😅🤣😂 the doctor at the hospital suggested 4 weeks. She was fantastic and reassuring but she feels stress from my mhi battles is the likely cause of the wickileaks. And I already know it's impacting my BP. Noone has been able to shed light on the body temperature dysregulation but its probably another quirky thing my system does in response to pollutants, toxins, panic you name it I come from the weird mob in the way our minds and bodies behave be it strokes, stress, infections whatever. So I'm just sharing another riveting episode of "as the stomach turns". Hope everyone muddles through the weekend at the very least and finds something funny to laugh about with or without company at best.

Sounds a bummer. I don't know much about thermoregulation in humans @Radarears . I know there are some physical conditions that can make it harder for people, but that's about it.

I'm sorry to hear you are feeling 'misery'.... I guess it's led you to reach out 🙂

As much as you are hiding away from the world, good on you for reaching out here. I guess it doesn't leave you totally isolated.

What else have you been up to?

@tyme my infamous comment "nothing much" 😅🤣😂 my support worker now recovery coach outed me on that one. My psychologist outed me on the I don't have any interests. 😅🤣

Sadly that has been how a now former friend and people in the mh system perceive me. Bone idle and no interests. I've got a letter from the gp to try and get back into the gym/swim. I've essentially been told to stay away or go elsewhere due to my mh issues. So I'm simply going to ask nicely if for a short period of time I attend their other venue. I am cut off from my community and it is due to other members and the staffs attitude. I feel like I have bubonic plague, leprosy and am on the most hated person list at 2 places. Since I've asked nicely everywhere else if they mind my company and my quirks they've all been in agreement. It is so hard though to keep going out and about when pain and exhaustion and and and makes you just feel like lying down. And of course the negative nay sayers rear their ugly heads. Touching base with people right now is a bit of a stretch.

I'm so sorry that you are experiencing such things in the community. It sounds so hard to have to go through this. It's like a constant reminder that something is 'wrong'. @Radarears

So, unable to go to the gym etc, what are some other things you can do?

@tyme CRY CRY CRY. Hold lots of pity parties!!! 😅🤣😂ATM I'm wiped out. The sheer enormity of work required to get basic health care is mindblowing. I'm under so much stress right now with the amount of "admin" required plus all the "homework". There's a truckload of things I could and should be doing and I'm not feeling inspired to do any of them. I'm off for a walk now then it'll be time for the witching hour and afternoon evening chores.

@Radarears Hey how are you now?

@Tilz I'm enjoying cheese with my whine whilst I watch my one can't miss TV show that always ends in a migraine. It's a weird neurological thing but I can't give it up. The "Minties" moments are frequent and my dentist is going to see a lot of me soon. I'm rolling the Jaffas on my floorboards to amuse the cats. For those born after the dinosaurs left the earth Minties funded the dentists private schools for their kids and European ski resort trips before braces. The slogan was "its moments like these you need Minties". I've got several packets. Jaffas were yuk and only good for rolling down the wood floors at the pictures. If you could sneak in to the upstairs lounge dropping them was even more fun. I'm feeling very challenged and overwhelmed and it's a mad scramble to plan, think, organise and act to get things in place to get my cardiovascular issues to a safe point so I can hopefully manage and have a reasonable quality of life. I'm still in crisis mode panicking and still very unwell with the CPTSD flares. Of course the furbaby dropped his bundle too but early intervention is key. Challenged but determined to lose the "d". Meeting and beating challenges is much more satisfying as long as you remember to record the wins.😅🤣😂

Arghhhhh @Radarears ,

You're not alone! I'm thinking back to how draining the induction process for jobs have been for me in the past. My brain became mush!

Please look after yourself.

Have you had time to do anymore cat training?

@tyme I've completely lost the plot. I have no idea whether I'm getting the blogs and threads right, I need the ses the police and tracker dogs to find me in Coles and I'm lying in the lane waiting for my precious fat munchkin to come for his walk which he doesn't want to do. I'm lying on his "safety mat" because I'm so tired. I'm annoyed because I have to go on a strict diet and exercise regime. And was told to keep a food diary. And weigh and measure. So I rebelled. I got some pies from the food bank ate one and didn't record it. I'm taking pics as records so it's easier and I used the pic of the healthy lunch I had ready instead. I'll take a second pic tomorrow when I have it for lunch.😇😇 I get overwhelmed and overtired very quickly. I'm still very unwell with the cptsd episode and recent events and dealing with people who belong to "nice of you to tell me" group. 🫠🙃🤪

It sounds like a 'too hard, too bad" time at the moment @Radarears

I hear how tiring it can all be just listening to what's expected of you when you are feeling low in energy!

I feel for you @Radarears . I'm totally hearing you in terms of 'sneaking' in a pie... (I would too....)