Is there anybody out there (wanna lend me a hand)

@tyme as long as it's hair not skin!😅🤣😂 been there done that with seriously matted coat. Mind you the vets have had to stitch up the professional grommets oops moments. Just saying 😅🤣😂 and of course she's cuteness overload and a professional time waster. Getting anything done is a challenge.

@tyme et al. I had a serious meltdown after my first group session yesterday. The fact that one person flagged that we could be triggered and I'm getting triggered so much lately it was like "yeah nah" got this. (There was a mutual consensus re signalling if time out was read but person was OK. I flagged a signal to keep us on track because going round the mulberry bush is fine if you have unlimited hours.😅🤣😂 then another member gave an example of something I struggle with "toxic positivity" from people who IMHO are only making themselves feel better at best but often it is sadly deliberate. I'm still learning the lingo. Difficulty with concepts and terms is part of my disability and I've started asking "show me" or "what do you mean?". Anyhow great group went home fine fine not fine. Couldn't breathe. Absolutely crumbled. Phoned RC because we had an OT appt which we decided to rebook and then it was just another relapse? Flare? Lapses? Sharing about the pup was perfect. It took my mind to a different place and gave me much needed relief and respite. The TR gala is still going and my brain is throwing some curve balls but this bout is 🤞🤞🤞 more manageable than the previous epic. CPTSD is a 24/7 disease. The monitoring and managing is intense and the severity of each "bout" has been increasing. I've yet to get my next round of emdr started because the stability and focus hasn't been there. I'm hopeful that the recent changes I've made will provide the routine, focus and stability I need to get it done. Im physically challenged as well and my SOH is keeping me afloat in regard to the fact that my body refuses to let go of a single gram. Losing the 20k is probably going to be unattainable. I'm being cheered by staunch friends who are suggesting Specsavers for the medicos recommending the loss. Mirrors for the stomach on legs ones who call me fat. 😅🤣😂 as for the underwhelming response to my pictorial food diary well I'll just keep using photoshop and screenshots of perfect plates from the net with a few real pics mixed in to make it look real.😅🤣😂

of course @Radarears . you are a lovely character with a best heart filled with magic thoughts

@Tilz aaaw thanks. Feeling more confident that the cmh people and the gym community members are the exception to the rule that I'm the most boring, horrible, difficult person who ever roamed the earth. I've just baked a chocolate cake for my counsellor tomorrow. I had to bake because my precious furbaby couldn't get his footing in the roof cavity (4 days in a row) panicked, cried, scrabbled wildly, cried, panicked. Mamas up the ladder in the pouring rain with a torch singing to him and telling him he can do it. Out of reach of course. Up and down ladder. Phoned handyman. Told me to get off the ladder because it was c wet and I didn't need to break another bone. He agreed to come first thing tomorrow to get him. Ignored advice went back up ladder. Kitty had shifted. Came inside then a miracle. He came down. Mamas nerves were shredded a cake was promised and the smell of cooked cake is calming everyone down. The mandatory bowl clean helped too. Tomorrow I attempt buttercream icing. 😱🍰

wow @Radarears you seems like a good baker. How was the cake?? will have a pic of that.

@Tilz @Only crumbs left apparently. Today I baked mini cakes after attending my friends funeral

One is missing but I'm happy to take a pic. If you can give me instructions on posting it.

My healthy meal bars aren't as popular strangely enough. Microwaved they are pretty good but the requests are for the naughty but nice cakes, fudge and tablet, ginger biscuits etc. Sponges and scones are a bit more challenging.

@Radarears That's great. You can upload pic as same as you reply for a post. you will see some small icons in top your text box. you can upload pics from 8th one.

Hey @Radarears ,

That looks good @Radarears

Hope things are okay for you so far this week 🙂

@tyme Thank you. Sadly not. I'm going downhill faster than an Olympic skier. I literally don't know what to do. Current treatments and therapies and all my best efforts to change to get my health stable and under control are proving to be an epic fail. I'm so exhausted. But baking and cooking are such pleasant activities if I'm in the mood to cope with the mess and clean up. I'm always so out of it I can never remember what I used, rarely follow a recipe and somehow come up with something different and tasty. The fact that there are people willing to taste test does give me incentive to make things.