Fear

@peace

thank you for sharing, what you have been through, i know it would not have been easy and i truly appreciate every kind word you have said to me. you have unbelievable strength, it surrounds you and i can read it in your posts, you have such compassion for others and understanding.

I feel very lucky knowing you, and that you found a place where you can find comfort and encouragment.

Panic attacks are not something i get so much myself, i get small ones that are more me getting hyped up about little things. I always find music helps me to calm, and i focus on my hands in front of me, i put all my fingers together so they are touching at the ends like i am holding an invisible ball, then i slowly bend each indervidual link down so i end up looking at a love heart shape with my thumbs pointed at the bottom, while doing this i focus on my breathing and inhaling the peace and calm and exhaling the stress and worry. i don't know if something like that will help you it's just a thought, as i said i find it helps me focus and calm.

you are needed here and appreciated too

i hope you are feeling better

@peace

realising that you are feeling this way, and addressing, is good, you know it is not as severe as previously, thanks to the help of your new meds, you are normal, and all people struggle with similar things, of wanting to be strong, wanting to feel capable of dealing with life, i want the same things for myself, and i am sure a lot of other people want it also.

i hope that you feel the love and support here in the forums

And i understand about the wanting to held and comforted, i miss that feeling also

You are not silly at all for thinking that you wouldn't break again, i think that way too, and i find myself breaking every week, only to discover through strength that i do not realise, and the support offered here that i am able to keep going,

The magic pill, is a beauty, i am searching for mine, it does take time, and you realise that it is helping a lot which is good.

You can have a big soul cry with me if you like, i know i need it, i have my cry's, late at night on my own,

what i find helps, is pouring out everything in my head on here, or in my private journal, i just write and write whatever is in my head, otherwise known as venting, i vent here a lot, and cry at night only sometimes.

I learnt early on joining the forum, that being scared of posting on here, is normal, the good thing is anonymity, and that no-one here judges another, we have been there, or are going through it also, or sometimes not yet approached it, but we support each other, i support you.

i hope this helps

Big virtual hugs

Hi @peace

I'm so glad you jumped on here to share what you're going through. We don't want you to go through this alone.

I was glad to read that you're doing better than yesterday. It seems step by step you're getting back on track on track. I think members here will agree with me that you're definitely not viewed as weak or pathetic in here.

In regards to the physical things going on for you at the moment, would I be right in assume the stomach pain and shakes are associated with not being able to eat. I ask just to ensure there's not other medical stuff going on that may need urgent attention (eg: diabetes).

In my experience, such levels of anxiety which stop people from eating and sleeping, creates a bit of a loop, in that the physical symptoms that are arise as a consequence would be pushing more anxiety. And around and around the loop continues, until there's a circuit break to stop the cycle.

Based on your previous experiences, what is your circuit breaker?

It could be as simple as eating something that doesn't upset the stomach.. eg: a piece of toast. So that starts to alleviate some of the physical symptoms, which can assist in dealing with the next step.

Or another example is calling a particular helpline, which then reduces the anxiety enough to eat/ sleep.

I agree about @kato, @Alessandra1992 , @kristin and other members of the community being wonderfully empathetic and I also feel that you're a blessing to this community too.

@peace

It sounds like you are going through a really tough bit, Try not to be too hard on yourself tho, i know it is easy to do, when we get like that, to start really getting stuck into ourselves because we are struggling.

Also i have never viewed you as being weak or pathetic, i have only ever seen strength and a strong character, someone who is much appreciated here, and whose comments have always been sincere and honest.

I know that feeling of feeling like you have lost a job, i went through that quite a few times in the last couple of years, i found it helped for me, it all depends on how you feel, but it helped for me to sit down with my boss, and explain to him what i was going through........ it was extremely difficult, but he asked me how he could help, and we worked out a few things.

Like i said it was something that helped me, i am not saying you should do it, but it might help?

I hope you are feeling better