@Former-Member @Shaz51 @Faith-and-Hope @soul
So my darling had a pdoc app this ave, he was actually booked out but squeezed her in between scheduled appointments. The result is she will be be going back in to hospital in the next week or 2 for ECT therapy.
Don't want to go into specifics but for me the risks still outweigh the potential benifits. At the same time I feel really selfish thinking this as she existing at the moment, not living, and desperate to try anything, for this reason she has my full support, it is tearing me apart on both counts is all. Darling understands I am worried and was actually sweet to me on the drive home and expressed her appreciation of my support, dont often get that so it helped and made it worse at the same time.
One of our boys was promised a birthday party at the end of the month, now I have to trg explain to him why mummy probably wont be there. He already feels ripped off in life. Possibly can just have it early for him.
Add in university assesment and the fact that I am stuffing work around with rosters before I even start my new job we are having a swell time here.
Sorry, I know lots of people are doing it tough at the moment, I always seem to be whinging and over-sharing, have noone to talk to is all. Just when I think im good I feel like balling my eyes out again 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
