Ups and Downs of Husband`s Mental Illness

hello @Former-Member @Appleblossom @Shaz51 @Determined @Anony18

I am a bit frightened of falling apart in there totally.

I have had many moments at home where I have sobbed my heart out.

A support worker through carer Australia, I think, trys to fill my head with all of this positive affirmations.

She keeps telling me that I have so much potential and blah blah blah

I have told her that my rational mind hears and if I was in a rational state of mind I would readily welcome her words.

However I am far from being in a rational state at the moment. I dont choose hospital lightly quite the contrary actually. It has taken 3 different people to convince me.

So yet again people need to recognise that when someone suffers with symptoms of a mental illness they dont need to be told that the sun is coming up tomorrow, or how self-aware they are and they just have to believe in that.

We already know that!! we just need to breathe. just a hug please. talk normally to us.

Darcy your response is brilliant. Direct and not fluffed up but still sensitive and so supportive.

Thank you

ps. I am not directing my vent at anyone on this site - just in the real world. hoping also people who dont have an illness can think about this with the person they are caring for too. we want reality.

hope I havent upset anyone

@Former-Member @Shaz51 @Appleblossom @Determined @Anony18

I have just read what I posted and am worried now that it doesnt sound the way I meant it to.

I dont know what to change or how to fix it. I think that I will just make matters worse.

So please know that I am not judging anyone or directing my comments to anyone on here.

My vent is not meant to sound harsh either. Those are my painful emotions coming to the fore.

I value all of you on here and know how loving you are with your families.

please forgive me if i have offended anyone.

Hello @Appleblossom

I am sorry , I just don`t class her as a friend , I thought a friend stuck by you in the good times and the bad

she never rings me , when I ring her -- she starts yawning

she has not be involved in our lives and she does not want too

soo out of the blue ater all this time she made us some soup , but she did not come to the house , we had to go pick it up from her business

Hello @Former-Member, @Determined, @Former-Member, @Anony18

Hi @Shaz51 @Appleblossom @Former-Member

Just here now 3.5 hrs away from home as I decided get away this long weekend and determined (in 3rd attempt) climbed the biggest tree here. Was so scared but am proud I did it now. I needed this break away. Been feeling bit anxious on and off past few weeks and unsure why. Work or hearing all these sad stories in the news or other things am not sure. Been finding at times I pretend to be happy and ok when am not. The smile and enthusiasm is fake. So guess this is my self care. Only told a few I am down here as I don't want the judgement of why did you go alone and they will think something is wrong.

@Former-Member - you didn't offend. Aware you are venting and are frustrated and we are here to listen as always 😊

You definitely do need a big hug!!!! 💕

Sorry about that friend ... weird that you had to collect it .. @Shaz51

@Anony18 A tree climber ... I wish I still could ... so today I will do it through you .. lol .. thanks

@Former-Member You are so careful about not hurting others.

It is hard to know how others will read our posts .. I got what you meant ... I hope the hospital break works for you.

I am booking a painting weekend away with the dragon babies to the same area for a couple of weeks time @Anony18 .... WH approved cos he wouldn't want to come if he was here and will be trading off a bit of guilt for doing his own thing .... 😏:face_with_rolling_eyes: .... all to the good for the moment.

D1 and SIL climbed what I suspect is the same tree a few weeks ago.

Posting a pic, cos without identifying where it actually is, I think it's okay ....

@Appleblossom