Medications are such an individual thing.
My mother was and my ex is proud that they have not had medication for decades. I feel that I was the shock absorber and therapist in many ways and so it am battling with long term trauma where if they had been decent and moral to me my childhood trauma could have remained in my past. As it is my marriage as a felt experience was 10x worse than my childhood with lots extra layers becasue of not being able to do more for my children.
lol. @PeppiPatty Thanks ... Today it went down to 1K .. I mentioned the Super and he said a very quiet "yes" so that may be for another day.
I started painting house when son went to live with dad a couple of months ago. 2 weeks ago I had new oven and stove put in and I have new ceramic basins and tapware in each bathroom waiting for me to get a breather on my credit card and then I will put them in ,,, but after the timing belt on car ... and then maybe my son will help finish the painting.
Is that a rational order @Determined??
However my son has backed himself into a corner and is digging himself in deep and it might cost him his mini inheritance as his lawyer says it will preclude legal aid and lawyers like to charge like bulls ... I might research the concept of mens rea re their profession!. I am a very unsatisfied customer and been bullied socially by legal eagles. At least the barrister who I sang next to in April apologised for being aggressive, a bully and crabby. I have to stop being so nice.
For the first time in over 30 years in a parenting discussion of 3 children father says a pseudo responsible thing as in "my son has to take the consequences". I feel outrage as life has been unfair and I understand son's tendency to avoidance and to isolate and to test boundaries. I can take the 1k but it will not be silence money. Son is like his father in some ways but also unique and different. Please wIsh me luck as this is serious, current and ongoing.
I took more prn meds yesterday than ever before. Trying to contain the family stress financially and medicinally, I am pushing for it and son is agreeing but they wont even let my son see a doctor.
