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creative_writerSenior Contributor
Sometimes I feel like I’m on top of things and don’t feel like my trauma defines me and I don’t feel so ashamed and scared. Other times I want to hide from the world and feel like a **** (I’m not going to say the word here since I don’t want to trigger anyone) 😭, I feel so ashamed that I don’t want people to know
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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tymeModerator
I don't think you are alone in feeling that way. I used to always say that to my drs. @creative_writer That because I was mentally in such a bad place, I must have been defective.
Is there a way to reframe that thought so that it is more helpful for you?
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JynxModerator
We are the sum of our experiences @creative_writer. I used to blame myself endlessly, thinking I was broken and weak. I think moving forward takes a combination of being able to accept that we are the product of circumstances outside of our control - but also not let ourselves become a passive victim to our struggles. It's difficult, but not impossible. You're not defective if your survival-brain is responding exactly how it's supposed to respond to traumatic experiences. But you also don't have to let those experiences define you.
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AcanthizaSenior Contributor
I understand that feeling @creative_writer but no-one asks for a mental illness, I somehow doubt you set out for it and I personally don't think you are defective. Did something happen to make you start thinking about this?
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AcanthizaSenior Contributor
Oh while I was writing two great responses showed up. I agree with @Jynx it is hard but accepting you are actually not in control of some things can be a step to going a little easier on yourself. And @tyme , always a good first response to think if you can reframe things. Some of these views can be so punishing.
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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JynxModerator
I'm about to log off @creative_writer but I will send some big huggles your way 🫂
I am sorry things are hitting you so hard tonight, and I know @Acanthiza and @tyme got your back.
Night night to you all, big love from this lil Jynx 💜
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AcanthizaSenior Contributor
Tough things to deal with @creative_writer , sometimes it can all feel so unfair. Remember that you are tough as well, you are navigating difficulties that most people have no idea about. I also grew up never talking about mental health. Well I even had a stretch of going into... whatever it is called when you shut down and can't talk anymore. It can change... slowly, slowly.
Hoping for the best for you @creative_writer
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AcanthizaSenior Contributor
Also goodnight @Jynx , pleasant dreams
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