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Oscillation between two mind sets

Oscillation between two mind sets

Sometimes I feel like I’m on top of things and don’t feel like my trauma defines me and I don’t feel so ashamed and scared. Other times I want to hide from the world and feel like a **** (I’m not going to say the word here since I don’t want to trigger anyone) 😭, I feel so ashamed that I don’t want people to know

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@Birdofparadise8, I have been to short stay ward. I would imagine the psych wards in private hospitals would be nicer than public. I had to try to stay safe by myself, if I ever went to a psych ward my parents would freak. I’ve been to ED a couple of times for MH health, that was already stressful enough and had the police called over due to SI. I’ve had periods of intense SI over the summer, but I try to control it with PRN if it does happen

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Yeah I feel you. My parents worry as well.

I know how hard it is to tell them, but maybe that's what you need if your feeling unsafe.

Yeah private is good. I go to a Healthscope one and it's good. The food there is very nice I would say 8 out of 10 meals are good.

It would be hard having your parents around with police I wouldn't like it. I'm lucky I've moved.

Have you thought of moving out of home?

When I went to the public ED for my attempt it was such a mess there compared to the private one I worked at. I did like how they had a psych area in the hospital but everything was like a psych ward so that was annoying.

Can you financially increase your insurance?

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@Birdofparadise8, what happened in 2022 mid year was messy with my parents. I got connected with the HOPE team after trying to plan an attempt. It was the same year where I started even taking action towards an attempt but being in a shared house, my mum and sis walked in, they didn’t notice what I was doing but I had to stop. What would’ve happened if they didn’t come in? I guess I would never know. I did once have my parents intervene after I took the means to my bedroom around early 2023. They’ve seen a lot of shit. When I was connected to the HOPE team I think they were afraid of me getting hospitalised. My mum felt like they were interfering with my life too much and wanted me to be careful with what I said or otherwise I would be hospitalised and forced treatment. I do fear being in a psych ward would be a traumatic experience, I don’t trust people. ED was already messy enough. I can afford to increase the cover financially with Centrelink allowance, if I really needed help, I’m sure my dad would be more than willing to help

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If your studying why aren't you still on your parents insurance @creative_writer

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@Birdofparadise8, because I’m 25+ otherwise I would be on it. It’s a shame once you’re older they are like you need to be independent. I do want to increase my cover soon, otherwise if I increase it later down the track the cost will go up

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I thought if your studying it can be until 30 @creative_writer

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@Birdofparadise8, not with the health fund I’m with. MH is so expensive, and now I probably need to seek more support for physical health. I’m just exhausted of it all😩

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Yeah, I feel you, psych, Pdoc and GP. Plus the others that you have.

Do you have to pay or do your parents @creative_writer?

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@Birdofparadise8, I do pay, but my dad does want to transfer the payments I’ve made. He just insists on paying, he wouldn’t even let me pay for my glasses.

I feel so weak today, and I hate feeling this way before uni is about to start. I feel faint if I get up. I’m so sick of all this. The temptation to turn to the wrong ways of coping is becoming stronger. I wonder if I can get access to the means by being persuasive

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That's nice your dad helps @creative_writer

Oh, I'm sorry to hear that. When do you go back to uni?

I hope you're safe.

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