Oscillation between two mind sets

Coping is coping, is what I say @creative_writer. Obviously the preference is to encourage and prioritise using healthy coping tools, but also the biggest priority is you staying alive. I'm sorry that things have gotten so very heavy for you that it feels like an option. Do you feel like you have enough support at the moment, someone you can talk to about the increase in SI?

If it helps you refrain from doing risky stuff @creative_writer then maybe it's the best choice. Could be something to chat to your pdoc about in March too, just getting some input on how best to use your prn, or talk about some other options for when things get really heavy like they are now.

Did you get to talk to your psych about how things have been lately?

@creative_writer I'm glad your team is so supportive, and that you can shift things around if you need that support sooner.

It is a very slippery slope, though it sounds like you have plenty of awareness around warning signs and things to look out for, like using it for physical relief too. I believe in you, in your ability to navigate this in a healthy way!

A very rough day for you, but it's nearly over! You'll never have to do today again. I'm logging off for tonight so I'll chat to you again tomorrow if you're about. I'll leave you with this one 💜

Heya @creative_writer ,

How's things? I hear you feel a little better after the PRN?

Yes. @creative_writer Short answer is YES. How you go about it, I can't say. But yes....

I often asked that same question in the past...

Your time will come, but it means taking little steps towards it as much as you can.

You are not alone @creative_writer