Oscillation between two mind sets

@Jynx, it’s not that I’m touch deprived. It’s just that I don’t feel safe with anyone emotionally so I don’t get the hug that I want. I think the only way is to suppress the need like I’ve done in the past, it’ll stop hurting then. But thank you 💖

@creative_writer that is fair, and is definitely still a thing. Being held feels different to the passing hug of someone who doesn't feel safe enough for more. I feel you.

You're welcome hun. I'm off soon so I'll say goodnight to you - hope you have a restful night 💜

@Jynx, I hope you rested well last night 💖

I feel so shattered today 😢. Can’t help but feel low. The pain won’t leave

I am no longer who I used to be. She is gone forever and is long dead. I miss her but she was also easier to break

Hey @creative_writer, I'm sorry to hear things are sounding really tough for you right now. I think it's great you're reaching out for help. What other things are helping you through this hard time? 🙂

@Afo, I’ve been trying to distract myself, just had some lunch. I’ve done some prayers, listened to some music, did a head massage, had a cuppa

Old friends visited me today, their names are depression, hopelessness, frustration and loneliness

Perhaps you could invite them in for some tea, @creative_writer. Ask them why they've decided to visit, what they might need, and how you can show them compassion.

I'll sit with you too 💜

@Jynx, I don’t know why. I just feel low and burnt out. I guess the chaos I was in earlier didn’t help the situation. I think I’m going to try to distract myself. I’m not entirely sure what the emotions need, they won’t shake themselves off

@creative_writer it's good to be able to acknowledge the factors that have lead to us feeling a particular way. For me it helps to dispel thoughts around my emotional state being some kind of personal failing.

What have you got by way of distraction this arvo?