Oscillation between two mind sets

@tyme, my mood stabiliser is also a migraine preventative and I take dietary supplements too.

I think I’ll need to have some more pain relief but I need to be careful and consume enough food and water or my stomach will pay the price. I had very bad stomach pain around the end of December, but I chose not to follow the instructions properly so my fault, I was just desperate for pain relief.

I’m feeling a bit more calm now, maybe the PRN is kicking in. I feel it’s sedating effect. I decided to take it in the afternoon instead of waiting till evening so I wouldn’t do anything too impulsive. This energy was building up for days beforehand so it didn’t happen randomly. Surprisingly I got worse when I came back from holiday on Sunday. Maybe a combination of exhaustion, poor sleep on holidays (I didn’t always take meds at regular time either), irregular food and water intake affected my physical and mental health. I ought to be careful next time

Rest up my dear @creative_writer .

Take care of yourself. I hope you feel you better soon.

@tyme, with time I have realised when my mood goes out of whack, the rumination over trauma memories become worse. I became very fixated on what I lost and what had passed. I think being unwell mentally and physically worsened the rumination and from there I got stuck. It was unusual, I hadn’t had SI for months, and yet I’ve had fleeting ones on Friday and today. They are gone now. They say sleep can be a big trigger and I do find it to be. My sleep was very poor. Usually I wear a sleep mask and try to keep my room dark. I probably should take a sleep mask next time. The morning light would come out from the window so early in the morning, it was hard to get adequate sleep. Australia daylight hours during summer are ridiculous, not the first time I’ve been triggered by them

I'm sorry you do not feel well @Zoe7 ..

It's 42 degrees here where I am, so I've just been in air con all day.

Hope you are okay and we can chat when you feel better.

@Zoe7, I hope you feeling better soon. Sending lots of love your way 💖🫂

@Zoe7, I hope you sleep well, take care 💖🫂

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