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Oscillation between two mind sets

Oscillation between two mind sets

Sometimes I feel like I’m on top of things and don’t feel like my trauma defines me and I don’t feel so ashamed and scared. Other times I want to hide from the world and feel like a **** (I’m not going to say the word here since I don’t want to trigger anyone) 😭, I feel so ashamed that I don’t want people to know

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I’m in so much pain, I want to destroy something. My brain is racing 😫. I don’t care about the consequences

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If I don’t take PRN anytime soon, I may cause too much harm. But why should I care? What kind of life is this?

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Im okay, hopefully the SI settles with PRN

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Hey @creative_writer

I'm here with you and wanting to help if you were open to chat ❤️

I'm going to send you an email in a minute as well

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@amber22, feeling better after taking PRN. I am feeling sleepy though. I was not in a good way earlier today. This was the first time SI returned after a couple of months of not having them. I think I’m going to take a shower and see where I go from there. I just hope the shower goes okay, both of my hands are swollen, not even sure why. It’s normal for me to have low grade swelling but no cause has been identified medically yet

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So glad to hear you are feeling a little better @creative_writer but I suspect that little better is a far sight from okay. Just had a shower myself and feeling much more human. Around for a while if you want some company ❤️

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I am so glad that you're feeling a bit better @creative_writer

Do you think it would be a good idea to have a nap if you're feeling sleepy this afternoon?

A shower sounds like a really good idea.

Be kind to yourself today, you're doing so well

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@Zoe7 and @amber22, I think taking a shower was a good idea. My hand is a little sore, I wonder if I sprained it recently but didn’t realise. I don’t have much time for a nap right now since I have an app with psych nurse in 40 mins.

I may be far from okay but not suicidal anymore. The agitation was increasing over the last few days (around the weekend), if I left PRN for a few days it could’ve escalated to something much worse. I just didn’t realise that perhaps my mood was out of balance until today, might explain the worsening in rumination

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I am so glad you had PRN and it has helped @creative_writer Sometimes we need that curcuit breaker to help us out. Sending you a massive hug Hon ❤️

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@Zoe7, my hand is acting up and it’s radiating up my arm. I’m going to go to a different GP. I don’t like living with chronic pain in my hands. I’m also tired of POTS and migraines.

My heart still feels broken, but sometimes you have to learn to live with the pain
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