Oscillation between two mind sets

Howdy @creative_writer I'm here now, how you going? Rough one today?

Hmm @creative_writer... well perhaps rather than just taking the SI narrative at face value, you could reflect on what it is actually trying to accomplish. In my own life, SI usually arose as a result of severe distress, and was an extreme solution to what felt like insurmountable problems - namely for me it was fear of abandonment. Perhaps delving into what that part of you is trying to protect you from - perceived rejection, from the possibility of failure, from abandonment, from the possibility of being put into a traumaising situation again, etc. - and figure out ways to soothe that part of you without resorting to SI. It could be really helpful, but it could also be a bit de-stabilising, so maybe it's something to bring to therapy for that extra layer of safety 😊

I'm glad that your on the up @creative_writer. It's so much nicer! I seem to go down at the end of the day. I need to put in strategies to help out, but i dont know what. What do you try and do to keep the black dog at bay? I hope you stay on the "up" for a new record time. Do you go up to "normal" or "hypo/mania"? I seem to oscillate between depression, normal and mixed episodes
Stay safe

@creative_writer Mm makes sense, that urge to escape can be so strong. A phrase I've found helpful over the years is, 'What we resist, persists'. Sometimes in the effort to get away from or bury a painful thought/feeling/memory, we actually end up strengthening the neural wiring.

Don't forget how important your breath is in regulation hun - it can slow your heartrate and help you ground yourself. And yep, prn is always an option. You got anything on this afternoon?

@creative_writer aye for sure, but keep working on it; noticing, gently adjusting, not scolding yourself for slip ups, all that jazz - and day by day it'll get easier.

Is the assignment going well? Something of interest or not so much?

Hope your prayers bring some peace and connection 😊