Far and Away

You hold on @Zoe7 . Please use your supports here. What is going on underneath will blow over. I promise you won’t feel this strongly about it in a while. I promise all your support here will stay the same. I promise that you will rise again. Deep down I know you need this community and it needs you. Please try to let go of what has happened. I hope you’ll understand that I’ve been where you are before and overcame it, just like you will.

You cant let this be your breaking point. You are worthy of so much more. I have sh over this stuff for years in very dangerous ways. People would tell me that it wasn’t worth it and that I couldn’t let others choose my fate. I could not see that at the time. I can more now. Right now I have thought so much about ending things over something that would only hurt others and doesn’t ultimately define me. I’m having so many internal battles but have much more strength now to fight it. Lots of that strength has come from watching you overcome huge hurdles and not let things define you. I am giving you the strength that you gave me back. Hold on to the hope that I might be right. It’s not often that I am but I believe in you too and I believe that this will pass and things will be ok again.

heres a symbolic picture. The glass winged butterfly. So fragile and beautiful yet so strong and resilient. It reminds me of someone 😘💜🤗

I feel so broken @Teej and when the cause of that is also where you have so much support I honestly do not think I CAN come back from that. I know what is probably best for me is to leave. I have lost my voice and that has devastated me. I cannot support anyone - I cannot even read how others are. That has been so much of who I am here and that has been taken away. I am not enough - that is so hard to understand

@Sans911 I love you guys but this is agony

Dearest @Zoe7

I have no answers for you. Only you have those. I also know I do not possess your strength. You are such an inspiration to so many here. I just encourage you to make the decision which is right for you. But in doing so, try not to irrevocably close any doors. Allow yourself the time you need and give yourself an opportunity to return if or when the time is right for you. Keep your options open, as that may give you some hope that things can still be turned around and you can continue to give and receive the much needed support of the forums by friends who mean so much to you. Keep in mind that you do not need to support others right now, allow us to support you for a change. Your decision to stay or go should not be reliant on your ability to support others at this moment in time. Remember that you mean so much to a great many of us here. I think its pretty obvious that nobody wants to see you go, and we all have a great deal of concern for your wellbeing. But we will respect your decision to do what feels right for you. I know you are hurting. We all are ... from seeing you experiencing such deep emotional pain.

Sherry 😢💕

@Zoe7

I hope you will be okay sweetheart. I am really trying to understand what is happening for you and I would have a guess that it has more to do with the past then the present. Pain that goes for more than 5 mins has to do with the past and not the present. I would hope you would stay on the forum but also respect your decision. You do have a voice and perhaps learning how to set boundaries is important for you. I actually don't know what to say and I wish I did but perhaps I am scared to say the wrong thing.

How are you coping day to day in terms of housework and looking after yourself? The question I wanted to ask is what do you think you need right now? What would make you feel safe?

@Zoe7 You have not lost your voice, not at all in the way that matters. The way I’m thinking you might feel you lost your voice is a temporary thing. I wish I could tell you more here about my stuff but I can’t as you know. At the moment you can only focus on you and what makes you feel worthy. I have a feeling that @Faith-and-Hope , @Sans911 , @eth , @Former-Member , @outlander and so many other members (scatterbrained I can’t remember all but I know we are into the 10s of members) that support you to feel worthy. You deserve that support. You feel that connection and it is real and two way. To me that seems pretty important.

I too understand if you need a break or maybe it’s not that you need a break but more support from your friends here. I don’t know the answer to that. What I do know, if your brain is anything like mine, is that you will hold onto it and it will stay alive while you hold onto the negative things that we don’t see the same way. You have one of the most powerful voices for good on here. Use that as your voice. You have so many talents for that. Only you can hold on or let go of the negative voice that is devastating you with this. I’m preaching that because I’m so guilty of it and want you to preach it back at me some day. Please take care of you and keep all communication open. 💜🤗

This is what is hurting me so much @Former-Member I don't want to hurt anyone else here.

@Teej the same with supports - that is infact what is making it so hard to leave.

My beautiful friend @Zoe7 ❤️🦋

I can really hear how broken and hurt you’re feeling. Pls don’t leave - you need us to help snd dupport you. You have helped so many people on here thst we are all now helping you.

You are in so much pain I know you are.

But if you decide to leave then I will respect your decision. But I would be upset to see you go. Only you know.

Pls just take one day at a time, hour or minute by minute.

I have faith that you can get through this dark time.

Thinking of you

Your friend BB ❤️❤️