Far and Away

I am glad you are safe right now @Former-Member and even better that you have somewhere to go if you need. I know that feeling so well Hon and am so sorry you are having to relive all that. Please look after yourself - get out if you need. Be safe sweet Sherry

I am safe but it is a struggle. Please dont cry Hon - life has many things in it that cannot be controlled - we know that better than most.

@Zoe7 @Faith-and-Hope

I need sleep.

Zoe I hope you can sleep on things and make the right choices tomorrow. Choices that are right for YOU, not anyone else. Some things are worth fighting for, and maybe this is one such occasion? If something feels wrong in your heart and your soul, then theres a pretty good chance that it IS wrong. Your instincts are sound, trust them.

Good night all .... and sleep well.

Sherry 🤗💕😢🌺💤

Been doing a lot of that already today and I always reach the same conclusion @Former-Member I am not sure sleeping on it will change anything but I will wait until tomorrow.

I hope you sleep well Hon and tomorrow is a better day for you. All my love coming your way

Goodnight @Former-Member 💜💐💤

@Zoe7 .... Sweetheart .... I don’t have many words tonight myself, and I need to sleep. I know you will know what is best for you, and you have counsellor’s who can see you and hear you irl to support your welfare decisions .....

If you need to take time away, I hope you don’t close your account here ..... but again, that is up to you. I love and respect you too much to try to tell you what to do, but I believe in leaving doors ajar wherever I can, for if and when things change, as they often do.

Hugs n hugs. I will be looking for you tomorrow.

Leaving you is what is making this so hard @Faith-and-Hope I love and respect you so much. I don't think there has been a minute of today that I have not cried. The thought of not having you in my life is breaking my heart but I have nowhere left to go right now. I have fought all week for things to be different but I have no fight left. You are and always will be my angel, my guiding light, my friend - distance cannot change that

Please consider just taking a break from the forums @Zoe7 .

I am going away soon, and owing to the changes in forum policy, even though this is my home, when travelling I can’t post on the forums.

Perhaps parking things up for that period of time will have you feeling differently, along with being in a different space with your new work position too ..... and you might want to visit sometimes to say hello.

Of course you could do that by opening a new account under a new name, and I am sure we would come to recognise it was you ..... but part of having your own voice is making these decisions for yourself according to your health needs without anyone making you feel bad about doing that.

The forums are my home while I don’t feel I have one I can recognise irl .... yet .... along with the halls of my uni campus .... so you will know where to find me if you feel you want or need to.

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Good morning to everyone on this thread @Zoe7 @Faith-and-Hope @Sans911 @Shaz51 @Teej etc

Wanted you all to know I am thinking of you.

Sherry

You have me @Zoe7 You are sitting in the palm of my hand as it slowly rises. I hope you can find a place of safety whatever you decide. I am feeling you so strongly. I understand that what happened was 'the straw that broke the camel's back'. Life is hard enough already without anyone here having a go and making it worse. I am angry on your behalf.

I am wondering if the new med might not be helping you stay afloat. Is it worth seeing your Dr and telling them how down you are feeling?

Do take care my friend and do whatever self-care you are able to. Cry as much as you need to, shout out when you can. I support @Faith-and-Hope 's suggestion of leaving the door open just a crack if you need time out. So you can at least receive all the messages of support we send.

Love you, Eth xx

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@Faith-and-Hope I have no words for how much I love and care for you. I have not stopped crying for 2 days now which makes it so much harder. I feel like I am losing part of me and I honestly do not know how I will cope with that. You have kept me here with your love and friendship but I do not know how to do this anymore. I feel totally defeated and lost within a place that has been such a great support. How does one come back from that! I cannot see a future right now - only darkness. There is nothing in my life that is shining any light and that is so incredibly hard to live with. I have written my goodbye but cannot press post - it is breaking my heart to think I will be letting people down or that I will be the cause of any grief. I don't know what is best for me or what to do. I don't want to lose my connection with you because that is honestly destroying me. I need help but don't know where to turn anymore. What do I do?

@Former-Member @eth @Teej @Sans911 What do I do?