Far and Away

@Faith-and-Hope I am feeling so alone. It has been a very hard day. Tried stacking up those rock stacks but can't bring myself to even pick up one rock! I hate to do this because it has not gone well for me in recent times but I really need the support tonight

Hi @Zoe7 I am sorry to hear you have had such a tough day. Here if you need anything.

Here too @Zoe7 .....

I will be one of your rocks tonight ..... 👋🌹

Thanks @oceangirl Please excuse me - I do not mean to alienate anyone but what I need tongiht is a conversation with our F&H. This is solely about my needs and how much I am missing her throughout this last week. I very much appreciate you being here as part of that conversation though.

@Faith-and-Hope I need my rock tonight. I know you are not having such a great time either but having you here is everything tonight. I wanted to end it all again and can't see how I will be able to get to work or even function tomorrow. I am not dealing with life at all at the moment. I know this is not what you want to hear but I continue to struggle so much with being alive and having to deal with everything.

Had to deal with kids and dinner for a moment @Zoe7 ..... back again now.

I am hearing you Hon.

Do you have a Coping Box @Zoe7 ?

O am not excluding you either @oceangirl ..... it’s lively that you are here supporting both of us, and anyone else who joins in on the thread Hon 💕

Still there @Zoe7 ?

Hi @Zoe7,

I'm really sorry things have been so difficult. I understand you are saying what you need is F&H tonight and I hope you continue to get good support on the forums if that is helpful tonight.

As you mentioned continuing to struggle so much with being alive I'm also sending you an email to check in.

Take care of yourself,

Tortoiseshell

Yes I have my coping box @Faith-and-Hope Not feeling much like using anything in it - that far down the hole tonight. Trying to watch tv and cuddle Toby but that is not helping either - just making me feel worse tonight.

Been trying to sort things out today but I feel like it has just made it worse.

Both my parents were in to see specialists today. My dad is having an operation tomorrow as an urgent case. Not sure what is going on with my mum but I made it clear that I am sick of them not telling me anything and then expecting to jump to help when and if they need it. I can't cope with that and everything else going on. My dad rang me late last night to take him to hospital today - I couldn't say no. I have not had any time to myself today with that and DBT this morning - and that was triggering.

I am all over the place - as you can probably tell by this post. Not sleeping properly again and not wanting to at night. Feeling so lost.