I know it feels that way at the moment @Zoe7, but I have faith that you will heal from this. Part of it is finding that place inside yourself where you decide that your sense of peace and joy in the things that matter most to you don’t belong to someone else, and they have no right to come and take it from you ...... and then you start to climb back up. It can take a time of rest before you recover the strength and belief that you can do that, but it is a healing force that lives within you, so give it time and space, as you are doing ..... and rest as best you are able to.
There are peiple in Le in my life who kept knocking me down anytime I went near them, and waiting meg patiently at times to find opportunities to make my life difficult in my most difficult struggle times. It was when I decided that, do what they may, they were not going to decide my happiness for me that I began to find tiny moments of joy in my life and build rock-stacks with them. Even if they came along and knocked my rock-stacks down again, the rocks were still there and I got better and better at stacking them up again.
There is a lot of artwork in my current rockstack, in fact I am sitting in rock-stack-quarry right now with my art studies ..... so they just better watch out ❣️ I don’t throw my rocks, but I do build dry-stone walls with them, joy walls that they have to climb over to get to me .....
Start building when you can Hon. A big joy-rock came to you yesterday with the knowledge that you will remain at this school for the rest of the year 🎉💐💕.
Until then just rest, and know that your forum friends love and miss you .....
