Far and Away

@Faith-and-Hope @CheerBear My fb friend and I have been chatting again tonight and discussed meeting. I have said let's get through the next couple of days where we both have things to do and then maybe I could visit him after that - HUGE move from me - let's see what happens

@Faith-and-Hope @CheerBear Slept okay last night but am tired this morning. I did kind of expect that after such a big day yesterday. It is a lovely day outside - blue sky and very still with no wind today. I am still planning on getting out to get the stuff for my garage wall but it may be a bit later today when I hopefully have more energy. There is a little preparation I need to do before I can put the wall up so will do that this morning then measure up the area so I know how much I need. Thinking now I will go with chipboard and paint it rather than cement sheeting which is more expensive. Painting it should give that extra protection from the weather.

I chatted to my fb friend for a bit longer last night and he suggested that we could also go for a walk together - either than or visit him at his place - either one is okay with me. Looks ike this will actually happen - definitely a bit nervous, excited, scared with it all but still going to go with it and see wht happens.

@Faith-and-Hope I suspect there is a lot you would like to be saying to me rigth now so I am trying to think what that would be - I suspect it would be a lot of encouraging words as well as some 'very happy for me' words - definitely trying to channel some F&H wisdom right now with all of this. @CheerBear has been wonderfully encourging and I'm sure you @Faith-and-Hope wuld be loving seeing her be here to support me through this. I really m missing you Hon - especilly right now with all tht is going on but am very grateful that CB has stepped in to give me that much needed support. It is so tough not having you around but I amstill very mindful that it must be even harder for you - hope you are doing well and everyone is treating you how you deserve to be treated - with respect, care and love.

@Zoe7

Hi also to @Faith-and-Hope and @CheerBear

Sherry 💕

Thank you @Former-Member I have so many doubts about myself - one of which is not being good enough but I really am trying to remain positive. Thank you for your support - I have noticed you following along under the support button and that means a lot Hon

Hey @Faith-and-Hope I see you there Hon

Morning @Zoe7 (and @Former-Member and @Faith-and-Hope and all)

Zoe super happy for you that you have this new and exciting thing happening, and that you're being brave and challenging some not good enoughs (though never doubted you would do that)!

I feel all bubbly and excited/nervous with and for you at the moment. Keeping yourself safe (in all the ways) but pushing yourself too, is awesome. It reminds me of this

(I tried to find a cute/more colourful one but can't. Just imagine this with pink and sparkles please 😉)

Can't wait to hear how it goes. Is it a silly question to ask whether you're doing the whole 'what am I going to wear' thing? I used to get caught in minor details like that, before I didn't care anymore 😁

Hope your day today is good for you ❤

I hadn't even thought about that but I suppose it will be a consideration @CheerBear - 'what will I wear' will now be a consideration lol He did mention yesterday that there are no photos anywhere of me even on fb - that would be because I don't like having my photo taken. I said I would get one and post to him today so need to do that too - there is that doubt that he will still want to meet after seeing a photo - that is just me doubting that I am good enough but those rejection feelings are very present. I have always had a poor self-image and that is a hard thing to step away from - hopefully it isn't an issue ...and if it is then he is not right for me anyway!

I think the main thing @CheerBear is that I actually want this to work out - there I said it out loud I really like what I have seen as we have chatted - so maybe I am more invested in this than I would like to admit. It makes it all the more scary to think tht I am thinking that way. Relationships in any form are really foreign to me - especially over the last 10 years or so - it has been at least 15 years since I have met a guy even for a conversation - so much history and so many self-doubts. But I can only be me and if that isn'y enough then so be it - he is not right for me anyway!