Far and Away

Just a quick “hello” @Faith-and-Hope

Thinking of you and hoping life is treating you ok/wellish.

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Hey @Faith-and-Hope Nightly update for you... and you too @CheerBear...

Had a pretty productive day with getting a few things done. Half of the dining table is now clear but still a fair bit f sorting out of school stuff to go. Tomorrow I will try to make another dent in all that. Sorted and filed quite a bit today and started cutting out my butterflies for the collage - going to take me forever to cut them all out so that little project will definitely be some time off. I did do a little more of the peacock painting tonight but not as much as I wanted to - another thing to get to over the weekend.

Watched the cricket tonight - the Hurricanes won again - that is 5 wins from 5 matches so they are doing really well. I didn't want to go to the match tonight - knew I had things I wanted to get done at home and it was televised so I could do both at the same time.

I have had a couple of messages from my FB friend today and will probably get another one before I head to bed - it is still nice to have that contact with no pressure for anything else. It has been nearly 4 weeks and I am still enjoying our conversations. Don't know where this will go but just the fact that I am even slightly open to whatever this is for now is pretty massive - I even find myself thinking of our conversations during the times that we are not chatting - it is both nice and scary at the same time. Not really sure where I sit with all this to be honest but going with the flow for now.

Going to head off forum soon and try to get some sleep - goodnight/goodmorning to you both

@CheerBear We really just chat about normal day to day stuff - what we have been up to and how things are going. He is currently painting his house and still writing sonds at the same time so is pretty flat out during the day. He uses nights to prep for painting during the day so whilst we chat a bit it is not continuous every night. He is also into his art so we talk about that a little too.

The chats happen pretty effortlessly and he seems appreciative of the fact I ask how he is and what he has been up to during the day.

I do think there is some hope and definitely some nice feelings coming from all this. It has been so long since I have had those nice feelings CB and whilst I am enjoying them there are still so many doubts in the back of my mind - most of them purely self-esteem issues. I am also finding myself hope that it becomes something more and the last time anything like that happened it didn't end well - so there are so many things going through my mind. One of those is trying to talk myself into persuing whatever this is but with so many fears coming up from past history and the biggest one is the fear of rejection - that I am not good enough to have that type of happiness ...I could go on but I really am trying to put the negative thoughts on the backburner and think of the positives. SO much in my head regarding all this - as you can see my mind is telling me one thing and my heart is telling me another - maybe this is a case of following my heart for a change!

You are making complete sense @CheerBear There is so much in your post that I can either relat to or have thought about myself. It is a strange feeling and very unexpected that this has all happened but I never even imagined I would be open to this kind of thing again so whilst it may not go anywhere it has opened my eyes again to the possibilities.

Time for me to head to bed too @CheerBear Thanks for the chat - it has actually helped a lot tonight

Hi @Faith-and-Hope I didn't get to sleep until late last night as I didn't have my meds until after the cricket finsihed. Super tired still this morning but that is probably because the meds are still in my system. Hoping that as the day moves forward that I will get the energy and motivatio to do some of the things I had planned.

Toby and I are currently snuggled on the couch together - me under the doona and him on top of it - so different to the weather yesterday where it was incredibkky hot in the morning and then cooled off a bit more in the afternoon. The smoke from the fire burning to the west has significantly cleared today so I am hopin that that means it is under control now. It certainly made for a spectacular back drop to the city yesterdy.

Not a lot to report today that I didn't already mention to you and @CheerBear last night so will leave you with knowing I am thinking of you and miss you heaps. Hope you day has been a good one and tomrrow is even better. 😍🌹💕

hello @Zoe7, @Faith-and-Hope, @CheerBear, @Former-Member, @Bimby2

big ups and downs last week, cyclone still around

trying to catchup with work after the holidays

soo hot and busy and with mum in and out of hospital

guess what @Faith-and-Hope, mr shaz and I were not invited to SIL 60th birthday morning tea

and being judged by my cousin in regards to looking after my mum

and My Diabetes and CKD are getting to me big time

sorry my friend @Faith-and-Hope, sending you hugs and hopping everything is ok xoxo