Far and Away

That is quite understandable @Former-Member Feel what you are feeling Hon I have no words here but a whole lot of love to send you

Thanks @Zoe7 It is hard to see it within ourselves.

Here for you too hon.

@Former-Member nothing we can say will make your situation better or take away the hurt you are feeling. Just know that we are here for you hon in whatever way we can be.

Sitting with you sweetheart 💖💖

I know you are @Snowie and that really does mean so much to me. Just finished drawing some large Australian animals for the kids to work on. I still need to go over the pencil with a thick black marker so will do that after dinner ...then another job done. I also cut some more pieces off the branches so now I am sure there will be enough there. Need to have a shower and get some of the sawdust out of my hair, then get dinner ready and more planning tonight. Hopefully I can get that done quickly and be in bed early - need more sleep than I have been getting at night.

Thankyou @Snowie @Zoe7 Appreciate your company. It's such a complicated situation. I'm dreading the funeral. Family will be there and pretending that everything is ok. It's not

I don't know if I can go.

Am I a bad person if I don't go? They are so pathetically self absorbed. I know it will set be backwards. What will I do?

I feel really bad that I haven't been able to keep up with everything that's going on in everyone's lives. It's been so incredibly overwhelming here. I'm just surviving. I hope you all forgive me and understand. 💜

Of course we understand @Former-Member There is absolutely no expectation at all that you would be able to keep up with anyone at the moment - you just have to look out for yourself.

As for the funeral - that really is only a choice you can make. If you cannot go then that is okay - whatever you decide needs to be best for you. I know you have a strained relatinship with your family and that would make it extra difficult but also ask yourself what you would feel like if you did not go and then weigh up what is ultimately best for you.

@Former-Member

Firstly there is nothing that you have to apologise for. You do not need to keep up with what is happening with us, especially with all you are going through.

Look after yourself first hon, and remember that we are here for you.

Secondly, you are not a bad person if you do not go to the funeral. There are many ways to pay respect to someone that has passed away. For you that might be done individually and in private. There is nothing wrong with that. You do what is best for you and you alone. You are the most important person in this.

Thirdly, we are here for you, with you, to listen to you, to sit with you. We may not respond all of the time but please know that we are here for you.

@Zoe7 I hope you get what you need to do hon and you get some sleep tonight. 💜