Far and Away

Phone appointments are hard @Zoe7 I haven't seen him for about 7 months so should be used to the phone calls by now but I am not.

I have got a list of things I need to talk to him about, hopefully I will get through everything.

Gp appt. went ok. Just the general monthly checkin. I don't really talk to her much about my MI but I did today. She was quite understanding which was good.

That is good to hear @Snowie Sometimes we need that personal contact and to let others know just how we are doing so to be able to see your GP and talk is a good thing.

7 months is such a long time without having to be able to actually see your pdoc. Phone appointments really do not allow us or our pdocs to actually see just how we are - so much of what they see of us is the physical appearance and that can never come through in a phone call. I really hope today goes okay but moreso hope you can see your pdoc in person again very soon. Hope you get through your list today Hon = let us know how it goes afterwards when you get a chance

@Faith-and-Hope @Snowie @Eve7 Have cut up some of the branches I needed to do today - have enough for my co-teacher for now but can do more if she needs them. I kept many of the larger branches when I removed a tree from my backyard last year with the intention of cutting them up into smaller pieces to use at school so they are coming in handy now. I still have many more I can use/cut later but it was tiring doing the ones I did today. I have kept the saw set up though if she needs anymore than I have already done. I can't make the frame I was going to yet as the timber I was going to use is not straight enough so I will have to get some more next week - annoying but nothing I can do about it.

Have had Toby cuddles and a sleep as well but need to get into work again soon - finding it hard to concentrate today so just need to get the planning done for the next few days for Art and then I can do the planning for the class on Friday later. I also need to make some assessment sheets for each class but cannot do that until tomorrow as I do not have the class lists. That will take some time but will tackle a handful a day to be able to print them all out by the end of the week and have next weekend to put them all together. Still sooooo much on my list of things to get done but I can only do what I can ...and at the moment that isn't much

Not out shopping yet. S2 didn't sleep well. I am sharing lunch that I made for D2 and me with him, and food shopping for him is still on the agenda, just later ...,, 🤞

@Zoe7 @Snowie .... anyone else around ....,,

It is good he is sharing lunch with you both @Faith-and-Hope and still wanting to do the shopping ...even if it is later. Spending that time together is nice too. How is he coping without D3 there with him?

Hoping you get to food shopping @Faith-and-Hope

@Zoe7 you have accomplished so much today hon, well done.

Have had my phone appointment with psychiatrist. It went ok. Talked to him about my psych and having to change to another one. That part did not go well. He mentioned inpatient stay again but really don't want to do that unless it is absolutely needed. Wants to extend the ect treatment for now which I agreed to. At least I can do that as an outpatient. Tried to speak to H but he is too busy with work at the moment, maybe later.

Not having your psych to see ongoing is no doubt having a massive effect on you @Snowie Good that you could talk to your pdoc about that and also that you have made the decision to continue with ect for now. I know going to hospital is absolutely a last resort for you as you feel so much guilt about leaving everyone when that happens so if you can avoid that for now and feel comfortable with You are one strong woman Hon - might not seem like that all the time but how you get through and all that you do for your family despite massive obstacles is amazing - and all that you do and care for so many here is equally as amazing ....so much admiration, respect and love for you Snowie

Thanks @Zoe7

I don't feel strong, especially not at the moment, especially not with my thoughts. But then again we are always harder on ourselves then we are on others 🤔🤔

To me you show so much strength with going through all you do and working at the same time. I am not sure I could do all you do, plus all the care you give to others on here and in real life. To me you are super woman 💕💕💕

I hope the rest of your day goes ok. Have to take D to work soon.

Feeling quite lost. Not sure how to "get over losing your mother". 😢💔

Oh @Snowie you are very kind Hon but way to turn the attention off of you I honestly believe in your strength sweetheart and although you do not feel that strong right now all that you go through and all that you deal with shows that in spades. You are in a difficult position with your psych leaving and that would knock anyone around - so go a bit easier on yourself and know we are here with you and DO see your strength