Just checking in.

Thanks @Teej 🙏

I am hoping to feel much less frazzled by tomorrow .....

A lot of my overall situation has involved conflicts between my personal values .... it’s really hard terrain to get through as you measure what takes precedence .....

I hope it helps you to hear that I have learned to add the caveat “for now” to some of my decisions or tolerances ..... recognising that they are a way forward in the moment, and not necessarily a true reflection of my core values ..... they are my value outcomes according the pressures in an extreme moment, and that’s “allowed” .....

'For now ' is something I could learn too @Faith-and-Hope 💜🤗

You’re welcome @Former-Member 😊

there are are a few threads about art as well. I’m glad you have something creative to help you get through. I would love to be able to draw. I appreciate art and craft of most kinds and enjoy visiting galleries (and art on the net). What kind of things do you like drawing?

My day was rather crappy but I’m ok, just pushing through to another day. I too wanted to sleep too much but didn’t because I know I’ll pay tonight 🙂.

Heres hoping tomorrow is a bit easier for us all. 💜🤗

Big scary button pushed after days of self torture, but there is many more to come . Heading off for the night.

Night and hugs to all passing through 💜😴😴😴😴😴

Hi @Teej @Former-Member and others. Hoping today is a better one for you all. Sorry for the delayed response - a combination of a really busy couple of days and a lack of notifications of tags. Thanks to all who have tagged and included me.

Following along as much as possible even if I'm not saying much. Sending best wishes to everyone here. @Faith-and-Hope @outlander @CheerBear @Appleblossom (absolutely love the purple hydrangeas).

Love to all xx

Lovely picture @eth it’s just missing unicorns ☺️

Im going to take some self care time away from the forum. Not much. Probably a day or two. This morning I realised that as much as I keep telling myself ‘I’ve got this’, I really haven’t. Last night I experienced the biggest si I’ve had for a while (including the 'just do it' thought on high repetition) but I have a very big protective factor currently that helped me get through.

I am going to try to pull myself together. I just sms my therapist letting her know where I’m really at and she will ring soon. I had an appointment with her today but just can’t drag myself in.

Im ok and not needing anything from anyone but just wanted to give you a heads up. A support 'like' is enough, much more than that for now is probably not helpful.

Hugs 💜😊

Hey @CheerBear I think we were talking here about certain triggers about certain people in our past.

Haha yes we were! Thanks @eth 🙂

I had an appointment with my counsellor the other day and found it really helpful because I can talk to her but without talking too much for me. We were speaking about anger and the under the surface feelings of anger which I found helpful and have been OK enough with that one since. We'll keep chipping away at it next week. Psych tomorrow. He'll be thrilled to hear about my social media adventure 😏😉 In saying that, I have decided to never, ever look at ex and his partner's online, public, highlight reel ever again (face palming myself for going there in the first place!).

I was thinking about you earlier as I made the hugest mess in the kitchen (which I am avoiding cleaning up by coming here for a moment). I totally stuffed up when trying to make muffins and had a giggle at the difference in the things you create in the kitchen vs the things I fail at 😆

@CheerBear tee hee to kitchen fails LOL. I have many of them. Just realizing that people here usually only hear what I plan to make - and not about what is simply awful as a result of my hobby of finding new recipes rather than stick to the small number of tried and true favourites. Last night I used an oldie but a goodie - leek tart - very easy to make, google it if you feel inspired. I use shop bought pastry by the way. It's just butter sauteed leek, eggs and cream, s&p and nutmeg. You could do it with any veg e.g. mushrooms, spinach, tomatoes ...

Really glad to hear you're having some real life support about that business. I've occasionally tried to find the ex on fb myself, but luckily haven't been able to! And I know it would just be bluster and posturing anyway. I was totally shocked about the news yesterday of the event in Darwin - one of the places the guy went to was somewhere we used to frequent. Probably nuff said about that. Stirred up a lot, to say the least.

I've been on here for more than my usual time today so I'd better clock out and do some offline stuff for a while. Hope you end up with something yummy, even if it's stuffins instead of muffins!!