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Well done @CheerBear !! 😄

@CheerBear Well done you ❣️

Thanks for your kind words @BryanaCamp . Your post made me think about a few things. Firstly I guess I do need to make the effort to get out there. I think when I’m ready again it might be better.

I think money is always a problem when socialising too. I have friends on very good incomes but I can’t do much of what they do and our worlds are very different now. Although they are still friends it’s a limiting kind of friendship because of money and lifestyle. They are all very generous with me but there is now quite a big divide and I feel it more and more.

Im really sorry that your brother has been so unwell and so far away. It sounds like a good thing you are exercising some self care. It must be very frustrating though.

I know hrt helps a bit for me because my mood is way worse off it but my cycle is not good and I think I need to stop again for a bit. I also need an operation in that region and there is a possibility of a hysterectomy which would solve that problem but I guess I’m not sure about taking hrt for life then too. I will wait until my appointment and discuss it with the gynaecologist (whenever that ends up being).

Thanks for taking time to respond. I hope your day has been ok.... or even good 💜🤗

@CheerBear

One of my faves.

too much celebrating @CheerBear ? Nope! you can never have too much when there is good stuff happening. Well done you! 💜🤗

That is amazing news @CheerBear So proud of you. I have no doubt that you will be an asset wherever it is - especially if it is somewhere that you have a passion in the work this place is doing. Super happy for you CB

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@CheerBear i hope you are still carrying a bit of excitement about your news yesterday.

I am ok. It helped a bit to switch off but then I got panicky this morning. I rang my group person as today was a one on one session and I delayed it because I knew I’d be negative and the chance of ending in internal rage was high. She informed me that they were going to continue that group in a different format next term and asked if I’d be interested. I think that took some pressure off. I’m not quite as highly strung this minute, still way up there but not snapping level.

I have my psych this afternoon. I am scared to tell her something which Im not sure if I can write here as is very much not a role model thing or a recommended thing I’ve done but is very much a me thing. I changed the dosage of my meds over a week ago, not by much and to a dose I’ve been on before. If it was anyone else I’d be recommending them talk to their psych first. I was clutching at straws trying to feel better at the time and I think it helped but it could have been psychosomatic too. I’m not sure how she will take it.

Rave over. Mind a bit more at ease.

Hey @CheerBear , I’ve got your back. I’ll hold all that crappy self doubt for you so you can just go and do stuff without it, I have a bag 💼 for it to go in and can keep it at the top of my wardrobe 😉.

Can i I ask if rock comment came from well or unwell one. Im thinking well one but could be wrong too. I think most 'rocks' have stuff inside no one sees. A few years ago someone who was a rock for many (mostly complex family) experienced depression when the insides got too much. Being a pretty amazing strong human she sought help and overcome it. She knows that she needs self care now and seems to be going really well, back to superwoman status. That depression though gave her a new understanding of what unwell mh is. She shared it with me and I was so grateful. So it’s ok for things to not be great when you are the rock and there will be times where self care may be needed (included telling people that need you) to ensure the rock features are still a strength to those around you.

I’m so sorry for all the sad times you are having. I can only try and sit with you through those. I’m glad you are surrounded by two legged and four legged love.

Thanks for the response. Think it’s time for this black duck to start getting prepared for said appointment.

I hope there are moments of joy of joy in your day....and hope fully some garden pretties nearby. 💜🤗🌸🌷🌹🌸🌺🌼🌻🍁🍂