Just checking in.

Oh that is just gorgeous @CheerBear (waiting for the image to be approved but the words are gorgeous).

Im supposed to be at group. I just couldn’t get going today. Feeling rather scattered. U/S take 2 is in two hours. I’m glad you smiled at that post.

I’m so with you with planting spring pretties now. Maybe we can share our growing stories. It’s given me a bit of motivation. I got some Bunnings vouchers for my birthday that I’m constantly wanting to spend on things but haven’t. Perhaps some spring pretties would bring the most joy. 🌷

Hi @Shaz51 , @Faith-and-Hope How are your days going?

got the day off ( kind of ) @Teej

no work today due to rain

doing some catching up , but wanting to do nothing xx

Sometimes a day off work is a good thing @Shaz51 . I hope you get to do nothing for a while. 💜😊

yes I think that is what my body is telling me @Teej

Hi @Teej @CheerBear @Shaz51 @Zoe7 (later) @eth (if you’re around)

I am chillaxing in a coffee shop with secret backyard garden that I found near my counsellor’s rooms this morning. I popped in here for coffee last week, but didn’t see the backyard ..... totally atomed with this ❣️ It’s arty 😄🙏🎶

Sounds wonderful @Faith-and-Hope . Always love a good find with a secret garden. 💜👍🏻

very nice @Faith-and-Hope , enjoy

Just checking in for what has been a crazy afternoon spent having the u/s and chasing up financials which was anxiety provoking.

U/S didn’t go as planned. In my mind I was supposed to turn up full of wee have a tummy rub with a machine, wee (let the dam burst) and go home. When I got there 'he' (first surprise) asked if they could do an internal one too. He said they offer it to all women because it’s a more complete idea of what is going on but it was up to me......he must have seen how floored I was. He also said so many times GPs will refer them back for an internal one so it covered both bases. Me thinking of how much i appreciate my GP and knowing what she’d say I put my big girl pants on (🤔 I think I actually took them off for a hospital gown) and went through with it. A female nurse had to be present too which was ok. He kept asking how I was as I was pretty stressed and if I felt pretty uncomfortable. It felt like an eternity and I remember thinking 'just get that thing out of me' for the fifth time in my life (other 4 times were my children being born 😜). It wasn’t fun and the anxiety was high but it was survivable.

At one point he asked if I’d experienced any pain lately. I said you’ve obviously found something but he said no that he just needed to check in any areas that I might have experienced pain. I bought that response.

Tonight my GP rang. I was kind of surprised. She confirmed they did find things but were not a big deal and that I need a CT scan tomorrow. I’ve just finished googling it and feel ok about it all but totally repulsed too. If you a science geek who loves gross things you’ll love what they found. It was a dermoid cycst. One of nature’s freaky things. Look it up if you don’t get queezy. I’m not sure what will be in mine yet but the mind boggles. Am pretty sure I’m being set up for a hysterectomy but my girl bits have served me well and I don’t know where the manual is even anymore. It’s not one I’m looking for so will be ok saying goodbye to them if needed. There was something else (non cancerous) found too that makes me think that I’m heading for a hysterectomy. I will know on Thursday.

So thats been my mixed up afternoon. All I can say is why can’t i have had a cyst with flower petals in it 😝