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I thought I'd start a discussion where we can check in with members and use this space to keep in contact. It's a space to be able to say how you really feel and it's a space for the good, the bad and the ugly moments in our lives.
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TeejSenior Contributor
Was just thinking of you @CheerBear. Was trying to compose something when I saw this.
Today was harder, better, crazier, more honest, more deceitful, helpful and full on. It was 90 mins long. I’m not sure what I think about it. All my fears played out there.
I have a better understanding i think I think of the therapy and how it might look. It’s very different to anything I had but she actually pinpointed some stuff that provided a few lightbulb moments.
The more honest was was that I just put stuff out there that I thought I’d hide because I was so scared of rejection. It feels like this is a last ditch attempt at sorting me out to find some kind of functioning again. The more decietful was not disclosing the true nature of my self medicating. I didn’t exactly lie, I just didn’t tell all. The more crazy was me getting so paranoid that there’s nothing wrong with me and I’ll be rejected. The better were the light bulb moments and that she was able to describe stuff to me that made sense. She talked about my disconnect between understanding everything but the feelings don’t match. Sorry that’s not worded well.
It is going to be much harder than I thought and pretty intense. I won’t know for another three weeks as to whether she thinks this therapy will work for me. Needless to say all the emotion and build up to be rejected is pretty messed up. I had lots of si when I got home about why am I doing this and I should just end it now but then got a text from the psychologist thanking me for today and I didn’t feel so much doom and gloom. I slept for 4 hours after the appointment I was so emotionally exhausted.
I returned the call to respite and I am going (I think). I desperately need a reset. I have an appointment with my therapist tomorrow which I’m going to hate because I’m holding off telling her anything. I’ve chickened out of seeing her for the last three weeks. I have to go tomorrow and I will feel deceitful and horrid and disloyal etc etc so it’s another messy day Straight after by an appointment with the service for an assessment for respite. On Tuesday I had a review of the psychsocial program I go to which ended up being very emotional for me too. Im kind of over everything just now.
Im really glad you’ve found your brave. I think maybe it’s having a nice reciprocating affect. I keep finding mine better after you’ve jumped another hurdle.
Just going to tag @Sans911, @Faith-and-Hope for the update. This isn’t meant to be exclusive but I feel like I owe it to them. Not needing any responses.
Hugs to all reading this dribble. 💜🤗
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CheerBearSenior Contributor
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TeejSenior Contributor
Oh and ✋🏻👊🏻 To @TheVorticon for reading. Sorry bout the hugs 😳🤔
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TeejSenior Contributor
Thanks @CheerBear. I hope you have a peaceful night. 💜🤗
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TeejSenior Contributor
Hey @Former-Member. I should have tagged you too, and probably @Appleblossom and others I’ve forgotten. Brain is pretty fried.
How are you going? What’s happening in your part of the world? I’d like to know and leave self absorbed teej behind for a bit.
Hugs 💜🤗
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TeejSenior Contributor
Yeah it does make sense @Former-Member. Lately I’ve thought of you often with different things. I think I’ve learned lots about me in the last 6 months. Lol this isn’t about me. BUT I think the things I’ve learned lots have been through you, and others here.
Its ok not to have words as such.
Have you got outside with dog? I’d imagine it’s pretty bleak in your neck of the woods. It poured here for a while. I can’t tell you what the rest of the day was like. I was AWOL.
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TeejSenior Contributor
Oh it must be bad for dog to not go outside @Former-Member ❄️🌧. I lost it with mine yesterday. I knew I was at breaking point and he pushed me. Because it’s cold and I haven’t got much heating he keeps crawling under my quilt but accidentally steps on tender parts of my body. I have so many bruises and scrapes from him being pushy :face_with_rolling_eyes:😳. It’s my fault because I’ve lost control of me I have of him too and he is pushing dominant dog and I’m giving in cos I haven’t had much fight left.
Have you plans for next week? I hope the weather improves for kidlets.
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oh dear on the bruises and scrapes @Teej, no good! behave Teej's Dog! My dog has a tendency to paw me when he wants something and he has scratchy strong nails too...
im not sure yet, will depend on how they come home and the weather. son has been finding the world difficult lately and the wheels have been falling off for him at home a lot after bad days. not really sure how to manage things sometimes and he has some appointments late next week to hopefully get some extra funding for OT (but they dont have any magic wands either...) they have an extended visit these holidays so i dont get them home for a while still either and with appointmnts there wont be much time, They struggled with going which was hard. more head in the sand kind of stuff. not knowing and silence is hard.
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